In Another Life[JenLisa]

XXV|Broken And Regrets|

Jennie's POV*

The only reason why I agreed to Bobby Oppa calling Chaeyoung and not Jisoo unnie is that my sister worries enough about me. And I don't want this the add on to that.

"Lisa... she's been..." god I can't even say it, I don't want to say it.

"Jennie please, calm yourself first ok? No rush. Just breathe." Oppa held my hands.

I took in deep breaths and let them out after counting to three. When I finally regain my possession to talk, I spoke.

"Lisa, she's been... taking d-drugs." They looked at me speechless.

Disbelief was written all over their faces.

My breathing calmed but my tears never stopped falling. As I look at their faces and think back again, I looked down immediately to think of Lisa doing such a thing.

It pained me. Broke me into uncountable pieces that can make me burst into tears by just the thoughts of it.

I felt hands soothing my back while they shushed me caringly as I cried hard but silently.

"Oppa, Chaeyoung, it hurts!" I looked up and clenched my shirt.

"It hurts so much!!!" I shouted.

"It's ok Jen let it out." Rosé said.

"Do you know... what it's like to see her like that?! To see her do those things you never imagined she'd be doing!" I cried until my heart's desire.

I can see them just looking at each other with pity on their faces. I tried my very best to stop but the tears just kept on falling.

"Tell us what you want us to do. If you want I will talk with Lisa. Or Jungkook." Bobby Oppa offered but I immediately declined.

"No... no, I don't want our siblings knowing. Not just yet..." I whispered the last part.

"Tell me Jen. What do you want us to do?" Bobby oppa asked softly.

"Nothing oppa. It's ok. I-I'll think of something. Right now I just hope she's on the road to change." I whispered.

"Do you want me to stay with you and Jisoo so at least you can talk to me when you need to?" Chaeng offered another option and it was the only time I brightened up a bit.

"Y-yes. That's a good idea. I'd love that." I smiled softly and both of them wiped my tears with a sweet smile.

I hugged them both and tried so fucking hard not to reminisce about Lisa right now. I pulled from the hug and Bobby Oppa held my hands once again.

"Jennie... this one you have to answer ok? Try to answer." I nod.

"When did this start?" He asked firmly.

"A few weeks ago. On our 4th anniversary." I said slowly and he nods one time.

"Do you know why?" He asked softly.

I briefly explain the main reason. That she was most likely insecure.

"Ok... now go home and get some rest. Chaeng gives a call to Jisoo unnie and tells her that you'll be staying over for a while. Come up with something alright? And Jennie, I don't want you worrying about this so much. I promise I won't tell Jungkook or confront Lisa." He smiled.

Chaeng and I hugged him as he dropped us off in front of my house. Before we came Chaeng stopped by her place to get a couple of clothes and call Jisoo unnie who wasn't so suspicious about why her girlfriend suddenly wanted to stay over for a while.

The night was better with Chaeng by my side. She'd always check on me every hour till night came while I locked myself in my room. It's 1 am in the morning now and she just greeted me off to sleep.

I stared at the ceiling thinking of what she's doing now. Sadly the tears still came back the second her face entered my mind.

No One's POV*

The day past by so slowly for Lisa once Jennie left. She never thought that this would have happened to her.

But what could she expect too?

That Jennie would stay after what she has done?

That Jennie would forgive her that easily despite hiding such a big and dark secret?

No.

She knew this would happen. She just didn't know how to handle it. She didn't know what she'd do afterwards.

There Lisa sat at the same spot where Jennie last stood before she left.

Surrounded by white pills scattered on the floor, empty prescription bottles that hid them, small bags with unknown substances, and Ofc, loneliness. 

She sat there staring into the open trying to process everything. She had no other response but silence. Then she began the break down in tears. Immediately sobbing loudly as she thought of everything Jennie said. It's true. She chose drugs over her girlfriend. She let go of the one person that gave her her overall happiness.

She sat with knees up and face buried in her legs. She was broken and full of regret. And she knew hard and well that no sorry could fix this now. And that hurt her even more.

At this point, all she thought was, 'I am hopeless...'

After crying out, screaming her lungs out, and tears dripping till they've run out, she looked up slowly.

The dark surrounds her and only the moonlight is showing her some guidance. She glances around the cabin with puffy and swollen bloodshot eyes.

Now, what filled her head was what she saw. And that's the drugs that surrounded her.

She wiped away her tears and slowly stood up after inhaling deeply. Slowly and patiently, Lisa collected everything that was scattered on the floor. Whether it was the pills or the bags, she put them in hand and set them together to one side.

Mind totally blank. Totally clear. She did the unspeakable.
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"Hey, Jen," Chaeng spoke softly.

Jennie's eyes fluttered open and she smiled softly as she looked to Chaeng.

"Morning." The fragile girl said.

"Yea good morning. It's a new day... you survived." She smiled and cupped Jennie's cheeks.

Jennie got up and hugged Rosé tightly.

"Thanks for being here Rosie. It means a lot." They rubbed each other's back.

"No problem. Let's go down now. Jisoo has breakfast ready. Mandu's on the menu too." They giggled.
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Ok, that's all babes! I love you, gays!

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