Morphia

Distinguishable anywhere

Dave up there enjoy the read

Fuck fuck fuck , picking out a outfit was definitely a challenge, my nerves like usual we're on end this always happens when I know Marissa will be around. I hate to be cheesy but I'm really not like this with anyone else but her I've tried to be but it's impossible. After searching ever so tediously for a outfit, I settled on a tight black crop too that cut off right above my belly button topped with my black leather jacket and ripped black jeans what can I say I look best in black.

     It was already 6:15 , I picked up my phone and shot Marisa a text waiting patiently to see if she was ready to be picked up. I quickly fixed up my hair and jogged downstairs grabbing my keys. My dad sat in the living room with maru seemingly playing checkers I swear their weirdos. Marus just like my dad they both believe in building up the mind and spiritual shit i do too but I don't sit around playing freaking checkers all day. I quickly shouted a goodbye before heading out through the front door, before I can make it to my bike,  my phone dinged with a text from Marissa . " can't come sorry some other time", I gazed at the snow for a bit after reading the text funny I thought I was making progress .

I hopped on my bike and revel the engine taking off through the streets not forgetting to stop and pick up some beer for the gang. Just my fucking luck she can't come I bet Armon came up fuckin ass. I neared the lake driving further down to where my friends called "the leak" it was a part of the lake that branches off and makes a small pond with trees surrounding the area making it secluded and the best place to party.

I parked my bike near a tree and followed the small path to the leak , laughing and good music can be heard as I closed in ,warmth engulfed my face from the brightly lit bonfire. Dave walked up to me smiling brightly,"wassup eriiiiii " it's like everytime I talk to Dave outside of school he's drunk off his ass exactly why I call him a touch but a loveable one. Smiling and grabbing a beer of my own ,Dave knocked his can against mine in a cheers "so who are you with tonight" I asked knowing Dave would have someone hanging off his arm he may be a beer chugging-simple minded goofball but he gets bitches. Dave was popular when it came to females but other dudes didn't talk to him he was slim built and around 6'1 with black hair and a nose ring the he always kept in. He glanced around the bonfire not many people where here considering we didn't want to throw a huge party," I'd say the red head tonight" I took a swig of my beer and stared at the girl in mention" good choice". "I'll be getting to it then, oh and Lillies looking for you shes by the food" he yelled to me walking away towards the red head who threw a smirk his way.

I rounded the bonfire near the food table where Lillie was snacking on sum chips and dip a blunt in her hand, fuck yeah I definitely needed one, I took the blunt from between her fingers and took a drag as she flicked my shoulder. "Roll your own" she said taking it back, Lillie hates sharing her smoke greedy hoe. " why where you late I had to drink four locos" she said face scrunching in disgusts " I love four locos you have no taste, and my bike was acting up I would've been here sooner my bad" I tried my best to lie i don't speak about my inextinguishable love for Marissa dulvo because I know my friends wouldn't understand. They know me and they know how I feel about love and shit like marriage , I'm not for it one bit I just can't see myself trusting someone with everything I have in me, now I love Marissa for sure but I still can't see myself being completely open with her.

Lillie studied me for a second before grabbing my arm and dragging me near the bonfire where she yelled at me to dance til my legs break and I obliged tossing back shots like they were water all to forget about these feelings. Lillie grinder her hips against mine her smell was raw like freshly picked flowers so delightful, despite being friends me and Lillie have hooked up twice now the first time was two days after she had broke up with her boyfriend Richy she was sad and I had good head to boost moral. The second time was after watching Harry Potter re runs with Dave she was bored and I was horny and Dave well he was knocked out and didn't notice us sneaking to the bathroom.

I love Lillie as a friend I really do and that's how she feels about me as well but we can't deny the attraction and that's why her hips grind faster as the music thumps the fire crackling song to the beat everything was heightened including my sex drive. Lillie turned facing new smiling and backing away before leaving to chat up a dark skin boy with pearly whites, the illusive bisexual, smirking to myself although I was a little hurt because I was left high and dry,fuck.

Dave has ditched the red head and settled on talking to me for a bit while we passed around a blunt like I said the dude was my bestfriend. "So what are you doing for ceasors final project", I huffed smoke formed a ring from my lips, ceasor was my writing teacher and had commanded I write A book about the meaning of life before I graduate ,this would determine his letter of recommendation to my dream college." I'll do what I always do", as Hong the blunt and standing up I spoke under my breath "improvise" before leaving Dave shook his head.