Friends?

Seven

Taylor

As Jynx walks away I begin to cry again.
Ash stays with me the whole walk home.
Our parents decided it is okay for him to spend the night since my Mother has to work all night and I "wasn't feeling too well."
Ash just wants to keep an eye on me since he found me in the boys bathroom..

Mandy was already home when we arrived. When I realized she was in the living space I stopped.
Ash tugs at my sleeve. "C'mon, Tay.." he whispers.
I don't budge.
He grabs my hand and intertwines our fingers. "Come on Taylor.. Its okay.." he says quietly.
I let him gently pull me into the house.
Amanda doesn't seem to notice.
"Hey, Amanda. We may be a while, your big brothers not feeling so well" Ash says smoothly, still guiding me up the steps to my room.
"Awe.. Okay. See you soon, boys" she replies.
He's so good at getting her not to ask questions..

Once in my room he closes and lock the door, then turns to face me.
"So.. you want to talk about this now.. or a little later?" he asks.
I look at the floor, chewing my bottom lip.
He drapes his arms around my neck, startling me a bit.
"Thats okay. We can get you cleaned up first,"
he says, pulling me into a hug.

He leads me into the bathroom and runs the water once warm.
"So.." he turns to me, slowly tugging my sleeves. I shake my head.
"Please.. Im not mad at you,Taylor. I just want to see."
I turn around and take off my hoodie and shirt.
"Taylor.."
He gently grabs my hand and turns me back to face him.
"T-Taylor..." he hugs me tightly.
Id removed my bracelets before we left my room so he can see everything now.

I hate this. I hate myself.
Ash has been through everything with me and all I've done is let him down.
I slip off my jeans and get into the tub, keeping on my underwear because Ash refused to leave me alone.
He sits on a small stool next to the tub and just glances at my body now and again, knowing not to stare or it might frighten me.
Soon I am finished and Ash let me dry off and change into dry clothes.