Dawn

Chapter 2 : Burning with Anger

Hey again !! So here it is :) And oh yeah the chapters, from now onwards will most probably be getting lengthy. Hope you don't mind though. Chapter 3 will be up soon. Well, Happy Reading dear readers !!

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I woke up in shock. I was seated on the bed with my eyes wide open. My heartbeat was still beating wildly and my body was still trembling. My whole body was sweaty. I wiped my face with my palms and wasn't surprised to find a tear drop rolling down my cheek. I looked at the doorway, expecting to see Julia standing there with her usual sympathetic look.

As soon as she lifted a foot to get into the room, I yelled at her, "Stop! Dont. You. Ever. Dare. Come. In." I finished with both my palms held midair in a stop gesture. But I was looking out the window instead of her. "Renee.." she started, trying to get in but I stopped her in her tracks and stopped her from talking anything further by yelling again, "I said don't come in !" My face was red. I could tell because they always said it went red whenever I got mad. Tears were flowing all over my face.

I was staring at her mad with rage. Her mask of sympathy slipping. I saw fear in her eyes now. That only made me yell more. " For three bloody months, every single night, I've been having the same damn dream! I wake up the exact same way, at the exact same time! Do you have any idea how that must be for me?" I stared at her.

My whole body was hot and I could feel anger flowing with my blood all the way up to my head. She was looking down at the floor with the face of a child getting shouted by a parent. I took the upper hand to say more. "Enough Julia. Enough. Stop pretending as if you cared. It's been over three months and all you ever do each time I wake up from my dream is to hug me tight and feed me with lies that everything's gonna be okay." My voice was now a whisper and I was seated on the floor now with my palms over my eyes.

Julia took that advantage to walk into my room and sat next to me. She smoothed my hair whispering, "No dear it will be okay. Trust me. " The moment I heard that, anger shot through my veins and before I could even realize what happened, my alarm clock was on the ground. Smashed into millions of tiny little pieces. Literally. I was still burning with anger. It took me a while to calm down and make sense of what had just happened. Then images of what had just happened played in slow motion in my head. I grabbed what was closest to me. Which happened to be the alarm clock on my bedside table right next to where I was seated. Then I just threw it so hard, that it smashed into bits of pieces due to the impact.

I wasn't surprised though. I was always supposed to conrol my anger or feeling any emotion in extreme. Because any emotion in extreme could reveal my secret. I was stronger than any human being on the planet. Anger especially, easily brings out that part of me. And that wasn't a good a thing because the safety of others around me can't be guranteed when I'm on beast mode. I know it sounds ridiculous or more like a lame joke, but it's true. Even I am afraid of myself, when I'm on beast mode. Simply because I'm not in control of myself when that part of me is brought out. 

But I've been able to slowly gain control of my anger lately. After two years of practice. Although, I hate the anger management classes Julia's been sending me to, I've got to admit it's actually worth the agony because I've been seeing progress. In fact, the classes aren't that bad after all, although I'm the youngest there.

"Renee?" Her voice and sudden touch snapped me out of my thoughts. I looked at her helplessly. "Yea?" I answered barely hearing my own voice. With a hopefull look, she asked me, "okay, lets's do this. You tell me whatever you've been able to make out of this dream so far. While I jot down everything you say. Okay?'

"Okay!" I said a litle to enthusiastically. I sat with my legs crossed while she was seated the same way with her notepad and pen in hand.

"Okay, firstly I don't get why every time I'm dreaming it's like as if I'm having it for the first time. I only remember that I've had the same dream after recovering from my shock when I wake up. " I say while looking at Julia jotting down the information with her tongue out. I hold my laugh.

Once she was done, I continued, " Another thing I can't understand is the monochrome mode thingy. And why suddenly my vision started flickering later. Another thing that I found really strange was me being able to feel whatever the lover boy in my dream was feeling. "

I looked up at her expecting understanding from her but she looked completely lost. Sighing deeply, I was thinking how to get her to understand. "Rubbing my nose with my fingers I said, "Right, say for example you get punched on the face and only you can feel the pain right? " She nods her head "Yea? Obviously. " "But the thing is, I suffer the exact same effect as you as if I got the exact same punch too!!" I say convinced she understood now.

"Wow..That's..That's impossible.. " she looked at me in awe. "Yea I know right! but I could in the dream. It's like if one of us suffered the consequences of a physical attack, the other could feel it too. "

She jots down some more and says "What else you've got? ". " Oh yea! Although I wasn't able to exactly figure out where I was,  I was aware of things like it was during the 1950s, and I even knew the lover boy's eyes were actually brown despite the monochrome mode."

"Are these your own assumptions in concluding you dreams or was it part of the dream? I mean like those things you were aware of, was your character in the dream being sure of it? ". I shake my head indicating a no while saying, "it's part of the dream. My character in the dream seemed to know it".

"I know you've told me your dream many times already even I can remember your whole dream. But, so far you've told me what you're not sure about. How about the things you've picked up from the dream? Because it's been like over three months already ", she said with her eyebrows arched up.

"Okay, although I couldn't understand a few things I managed to somehow memorize the details of my surroundings. And oh yeah don't forget to jot down that the female character in the dream is me."

"Yea, done that already. Go on" she said while reading her notebook. "Alright, I managed to memorize the song in the dream. After looking up the Net,turns out, it's a song that was released in 1954. "I got a woman" by Ray Charles. ".

Seeing that she was done jotting down, I continued, "So that means me knowing that it was during the 1950s in the dream, is correct after all. That only made looking up information for the rest of the things in the dream a lot easier. I managed to memorize the buildings, some of them had signs and I managed to find out the city was actually Miami, Florida. I even tried looking up scented wines during the 1950s because I remember I was drunk in the dream and I found it aromatic. Hahaha. I laugh but stopped short because she was busy jotting down so fast, as if she was struggling to catch up.

Woops I guess I went too fast. "You can ask me to repeat whatever you missed out. You don't have to write so fast. I'll go slow or stop if you need me too. Just tell me okay? "

She nodded in agreement, while saying, "Okay I will but you can go on now. I've got everything so far. " Then, I continued, "So yeah there were a few brands of wine. Not quite sure why, but I'm guessing it could've been Dubonnet, maybe because it was one of the popular aromatized wine at that time".

"I even looked up the Net for any guy called Daniel. There were millions of results but unfortunately,  none looked like the guy in my dream and neither was there any Aurora that looked like me. After a moment of silence I said,"I guess that's all I've got".

The landline started ringing and Julia ran out to the hall to get it.  Disappointed and losing all hopes of getting some more clues about my dream, I walked to the bathroom to get a shower. Well, after this Julia's definitely not going to continue our discussion so I might as well not bring it up anymore. So much for discussing though. I muttered to myself.

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Well that's it for Chapter 2. Thank you for your patience guys. Love you!! Will upload a completed Chapter 3 tomorrow. Don't worry I'll update only once and it will be complete :)