I woke up to the bright sun light beaming through Maddie's windows.
"Morning," Maddie said rubbing her eyes.
"Morning," I said smiling.
Should I bring it up? I think I will. I'm concerned about her and want to make sure she never does it again.
"Let's go out" I said "get my mind off of this,"
"Yea, lets go to the mall," Maddie said
"Why are you wearing long sleeves?" I said "it's really hot outside,"
"I-I'm just cold," she said.
"No your not, let me see your scars, I know your secret,i found the blade," I said trying to hold back the tears.
She slowly turned her arm around and pulled her sleeves up.
Shit
It's way worse than I imagined. there were about 35 deep scars all on her wrist.
"Why?," I said with a tear streaming down my face.
"I'm sorry," she said "I didn't know what to do, you left me like I meant nothing to you after all these years," she said a bit angry with tears flowing out of her eyes "I was lost without you kate. you mean so damn much to me, you have always helped me and stood up for me,"
"So it was because of me?" I said with my voice shaking. she didn't say anything.
Shit shit shit shit
What the hell have I done.
Oh my god. no I can't do this.
"Just give me a minute I have to go to the bathroom," I mumbled rushing out of the room.
As soon as I got into the bathroom I sat against the door and just cried. I cried till my eyes started to burn.
Then I thought about something.
I put her through so much pain.
Without thinking I went to the drawer, opened it and took the blade out.
I pressed it to my skin and dragged it back.
I felt the warm blood drip down my cold skin.
The bleeding would not stop.
Suddenly all I remember was the room getting dark. falling back and hitting my head really hard and footsteps rushing to the bathroom.
And everything went completely dark...
