Love I Thought You Had My Back

Chapter 1: Reminiscing

When everything is going wrong, sometimes it is hard to do right.  I am Leila Wright and this is my untold story.

  15 years earlier....

  "Babygirl go wash up so you can eat" my mother Tina yelled to me from downstairs.  I hopped out my twin size bed and ran to my door. I cracked it open a little to see if he was there and I found nothing.  I tip toed out to the bathroom to wash up for dinner.  I switched on the light and was pulled into the bathroom.  "My beautiful princess you are" he said to me.  One day it will be just you and I baby and I will make sure of that he said stroking my curly brown hair and kissing my cheek.  I tried my best to hold back the tears, I wanted to tell mama so bad but I knew he would only bruise me up even worse. "Wash up and go down there like a good little girl" he winked at me and smiled as he left the bathroom.  Tears poured out my eyes as I washed my hands. "God can you hear me, its me Laila, Please watch over my mother and I and protect us from him amen" I prayed.  I dried my hands and walked downstairs to see him sitting at the table eating with a smile on his face as my mother sat next to him. I sat beside her and said not one word. 

I laid there in the bed, it was 3am, thoughts of my childhood ran through my head.  I was f*cked up, my life was f*cked up.  I was just a f*cked up person who didnt have a care in the world. All because of Magic, The man my mother married when I was 5 years old. The man who took every bit of innocence I could have ever had at the age of 5. A normal life is all I wanted,I wanted to be somebody or maybe even Beyonce one day.  Tears filled my eyes as I thought of my horrible past.  Will things be this way forever, I don't know but I feel like I have fought as hard as I could and now I'm just stuck. I sat up and reached over and grabbed a a freshly rolled blunt out my drawer and quickly lit it up. Something to ease my mind and this weed is all I need. I finished off the blunt and got up to check all the doors and the alarm of my apartment. All though I wasnt one hundred percent safe I might as well stay guarded while Im here. Grabbing my piece off the counter, I placed it on the side of my bed and and prayed that I could sleep through the night before I had to meet with Magic tomorrow.