Love I Thought You Had My Back

Chapter 2: The New Job

BANG BANG BANG! "Laila get yo a** up and come open this door, I know you in there... dont make me knock this motherf*cker down" It was 8 am and I thought I was dreaming but I knew once I opened my eyes that this was my nightmare of a life. I quickly jumped out the bed and grabbed my robe off the hook and tucked my piece in the inside pocket. Running down the stairs of my apartment I headed straight for the door and stopped in the process to turn off the alarm. This man was insane. "Yes Magic I'm up im up" I said out of breathe as I opened the door. Magic helped himself and walked in closing the door behind him. I honestly was scared for my life every time he was in sight because you never know what to expect from him. SMACK! Was all you could hear as he backhanded me. "B*tch who the f*ck you think you are with a damn alarm I aint no fool" " I...I just had it for safety" I stuttered as I held my face from the stinging of his hand. "Don't play with me Lai, You know I aint with that funny business sh*t, gimmie the damn code" I swear I wanted to tell him no but I knew he would only find his hand across my face again so I just took a piece of paper off the coffee table and wrote down the code to my alarm. As hard as I acted  and carried my 9MM I don't think I could ever build up the courage to end this man's life like I wanted to. He  scared me so much and  there just wasn't any way out of this. He snatched the paper out of my hand and leaned in and kissed me on the forhead. "Thank you princess" and turned to walk towards the door. I was so confused and disgusted by that kiss, he had only been here a few minutes and was leaving. I wonder if he had been watching me and found out about the alarm. I wasnt going to question him though, I was just glad he was leaving. "Oh before I forget, I have a new job for you today so meet me at 102 Elm Ave tonight at 9" I stood there as my heart sank into my stomach. Not again I thought to myself. I swear this is never ending. If this is what I think it is I will go crazy. Feels like every time I try to find my way out of this lifestyle Magic always finds a way to bring me back. "Yeah I'll be there see you later" I watched him walk out the door and slam it. I quickly ran to my room and googled the address on my ipad. "QUEENS OF DIAMONDS" popped up on my screen and the tears instantly rolled down my cheeks. Every time I take a step foward it seems like im always getting dragged two steps back. Here we go...

It was an hour till, I laid around all day crying and trying to come up with ways to escape this man. I swear I've tried running million times before but its useless. I remember my mother used to be this strong black women who's appearance alone just intimidated anyone when she walked into a room. I always wanted to be just like her or even better. I looked up to her and hoped one day I would take after her. But look at me,I'm 20 years old and I have no control over the life that I live. She would make sure dinner was cooked everyday and that I had everything I needed. My mama also was a very good wife even when she was done dirty.

"Goodmorning honey", "Valerie where the hell is my damn toolbox, I swear you always moving my shit", "Its right here kingston just relax I was only cleaning up and.... " SMACK! "Dont touch my shit Val you know I don't like that" "Im sorry it won't happen again" Valerie replied while walking toward their bedroom. "Oh yea I'll be down at the shop working late so don't wait up for me" Val walked into her room ignoring kingston. She couldn't believe he had just hit her again. He said he would stop. "Mommy are you okay I saw kingston hurt you" "No baby mommy is fine we were just playing around go back to bed hunny"

I knew then just what was going on. This man was crazy and he was going to make my mothers life a living hell and boy was I right. All though she was tough and well known around the city, she just seemed so weak for him and I never understood why.  I turned to look at the clock, it was a quarter till,I had sat there day dreaming for way too long and it was almost time to meet Magic. I got out the bed and fixed myself up. I knew exactly what to expect so I just dressed appropriately for the "JOB". Once I finished I went to the front room to set my alarm. I knew once I left here this would be the start of another chapter in my life but I knew I could not give up just yet. There has to be an outlet somewhere. I walked down the steps of my apartment building and walked a few blocks to catch the bus. After waitng 5 minutes the bus arrived. I nervously stepped on the bus and put the money into the machine and found a seat in the back and started my ride to hell.