The little Fanboy

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They moved and sat around knowing he wouldn't be out for long.  "It's my fault.  He brought the print and I didn't recognize him.  He handed it over and the security stopped him.  They are pretty firm and it scared him."  Yoongi said sighing into his hands.

"It wouldn't be your fault anxiety is hard and anything could have made this happen regardless you know that."  Jin said rubbing his knee.

Jimin bit his lip, "It really isn't your fault.  He has a good grip on his anxiety mostly.  He just has a lot going on right now and this was a big deal for him.  He was excited to me you guys but also terrified.  You're his idols obviously but.. more than that?  For Jungkook and I... you're our inspiration and motivation when it's too hard out there.  When we can't be happy with the cards we're dealt we smile and find a way to keep going because we know you're all happy and we get to watch you all be so happy.  So the fact you knew him from Instagram kinda I think scared him a lot, he didn't want to be a disappointment in person."  Jimin admitted.

Hoseok sniffled and pulled Jimin into a hug squeezing him.  "You guys are so sweet and sentimental I can't handle it.  You're the most heartfelt fans I've ever seen."  He gushed.

Jimin blushed deeply and hugged back trying not to die from the hug.  Namjoon widened his eyes and thought over everything Jimin said just surprised and in wonder.

"Shit.."

Jimin jerked and looked at Jungkook who was moving to sit up and cursing quietly.  Laughing he pushing Jungkook back and smiled.

"Take it slow.  You blacked out you're heart rate got too fast. Panic attack."  Jimin explained brushing his bangs back and Jungkook sighed.

Bangtan stayed still excited to see the duo interact without him knowing of their presence since he got so shy.

"Great I told you I would fucking die if I came here."  Jungkook groaned punching Jimins atm surprisingly hard.

"Ai- I'm Your hyung you punk!"  Jimin held his arm whining.

"And you let me fall down a staircase and die in front of BTS?!  I have to delete all my social media now you fucking Oompa Loompa!"  Jungkook whined and Yoongi couldn't help but laugh.

Sitting up fast Jungkook had messy hair and wide eyes looking at the group in front of him.  "Oh shit."

"It's fine Koo they just wanted to make sure you were okay.  And I didn't let you fall down the stairs I caught you."  Jimin glared flicking his temple.

Jungkook winced rubbing his temple and shrugging him off while glancing at the group again.  "I'm so sorry for the scene you didn't have to wait I can see myself out."  Jungkook said politely.

"I had to know how much to pay for the print anyways."  Yoongi smirked and Jungkook widened his eyes.

"You're.. you're serious?  No it's free.. I don't want your money.  I'm talking to you right now that's worth more than any amount."  Jungkook smiled and Jin cooed.

"You're very sweet.  It wasn't a problem to wait it hasn't been long to be honest.  Namjoon wouldn't have left regardless."  Jin laughed.

"Hey shut up."  Namjoon glared at him.  Everyone chuckled and then it was quiet for a second. 

"Well if you're feeling okay now our van has plenty of room and we have nothing against taking you guys home."  Namjoon said and Jungkook widened his eyes.

"Yes! Walking here was a bitch- sorry."  Jimin smacked a hand over his mouth and Hoseok burst out laughing.

"Oh my god I love him."  He cheered pinching his cheeks making Jimin blush four shades darker.  "Well grab our stuff and Namjoon can tell the manager."  Yoongi said nodding as everyone turned to go to the back.

Hoseok took Jimin with them not letting the other go as he was having too much fun bothering him and Jimin had no complaints.

It was just Namjoon and Jungkook and the air was heavy.  Namjoon didn't feel right leaving the younger all alone so he just fished out his phone and sat next to the younger on the step.

"I can just text the manager they always forget that."  He mumbled and Jungkook cracked a smile breathily laughing.

Putting his phone down Namjoon looked at him and smiled softly, "Are you okay?"  He asked sincerely and Jungkook felt weak.

"What- yeah.. I could walk home really I- I'm fine."  He insisted and Namjoon chuckled.

"No.  Not.. Idol to fan.. just person to person are you okay?  It's always just said that you've had a lot going on and you're doing really well considering.. but are you okay?"  Namjoon asked trying to be gentle but upfront.

He cared about Jungkook as a person, not a fan, not an idol to fan, nothing like that.  Jungkook was a person and a special one at that and he was worried about him.

"Oh..". Was all Jungkook said looking down at his knees. 

"I don't know.  I think I'm doing okay.. and then sometimes I think I'm failing."  He whispered but Namjoon heard it.

Reaching out his long and slim fingers grazed across Jungkooks thigh and rested on his leg.  "What has been going on Jungkook?" 

Jungkook swallowed and stared down at his hand, his perfectly manicured cuticles, his knuckles, his soft skin.

"Jimin and I planned since the beginning to go to Seoul School of Arts.  Jimin.. because he was so good at dance.. and I liked art."  Jungkook said shyly.

"And you don't obviously.. so what changed since then?"  Namjoon helped him along.

"We applied and with all the work we both did in High School we were accepted... but when.. my mom... ". Jungkook got something caught in his throat and stopped.

"I'm sorry I can't let you hate me too."  He cried looking up at Namjoon with big tear filled brown eyes.  Namjoon felt a giant knife twist in him at the sight and that the word too.

Who was hating him already and how could they?  What was he so scared of saying?  Before Namjoon could say anything Jungkook blinked his tears back and had a neutral face again as the rest of Bangtan approached.

"You ready!"  Taehyung cheered and Jimin laughed.

In the Van the manager drove and everyone sat somewhat quiet since they were kinda squished.  Jungkook said quietly up front to give the manager directions and Namjoon listened to his quiet and polite voice with a soft smile. 

He was a good kid.. and Namjoon felt like he could be there for him and he had to be, he wanted to be.  He was going to be.