The little Fanboy

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Jungkook fidgeted around the dorm watching as Jimin was closer to getting back from his class.  He kept thinking over the night before and how comforting Namjoon was. 

He was famous and had better things to do at 4am like sleep but he honestly didn't mind spending his time with the younger. 

For once he really didn't feel like a burden, he didn't feel stupid, or small, or annoying, he felt truly wanted and could tell Namjoon was grateful he messaged him.  It was so strange and overwhelming it almost masked over the dooming panicked feelings he already had. 

He snapped out of his thoughts when he heard the door open and looked up to see Jimin closing the door and setting his bag down.

Jungkook opened his mouth and then closed it looking down.  Jimin furrowed his eyebrows and walked over sitting next to him.

Lifting his head he looked at Jungkook and saw the dark circles under his eyes and the shine to his eyes.

"Hey what's wrong?"  He asked and Jungkook worried his lip.

"Everything Hyung... I feel so guilty and Namjoon Hyung said not to and to talk to you but I just can't I feel so bad and she hates me and I can't see her and you should hate me too."  He blurted rushing the words out so quickly Jimin barely had time to register what was tumbling out in a deep mumbled satoori accent.

"Hey hey Koo slow it down.  You talked to Namjoon about this?"  He widened his eyes rubbing his back.

"Who hates you and why do you think I should too?"  He asked carefully and Jungkook took a slow breath.

"Your mom."  He sighed and Jimin inhaled.

"Jungkook."

"Jimin im so sorry..". He whispered and the other bit his tongue.

He was caught in such a hard place because his mom was angry at the younger and he hated it.  It wasn't fair for her to be and the amount the younger has on his mind and shoulders as it is was too much for him without her.

"I don't want you to worry about her.  She is a mom of course she's going to be annoyingly protective over me but that doesn't mean I can't take care of myself.  I like it here, this school has just as much as the other one and if I get good grades and do well at performances it won't matter that I don't have some well known name in my resume."  He said and Jungkook sighed.

"But she'll never forgive me for taking away your chance at an easy life."  He rubbed his face.

"That's bullshit!"  Jimin snapped standing up and Jungkook jumped slightly.

"I don't want easy I want a life with my best friend, fucking with you, crying over idols, getting by with you like college kids are supposed to.  Why should everything get handed to me?"  Jimin huffed and Jungkook smiled softly.

"Because you deserve the world."  He said standing up and pulling Jimin into a hug and sniffling.

"And so do you and I want you in my world you fucking idiot."  Jimin sighed hugging him back.