Consequences of Love | 2YEON

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Jeongyeon's POV

"Nayeon!" I shouted and knocked on her door. "Open this fucking door!"

I'm so desperate right now. I want my Nayeon back. I fucking want Im Nayeon back.

"Open this goddamn door or I will fucking make a scene here, Nayeon!" I shouted.

"Fuck you, Jeongyeon! I told you to not come here. Why the fuck are you even here?!" she harshly open the door.

I walked inside and slammed the door behind us.

"You're drunk." She said and rolled her eyes. "Go home. Don't come here ever again. Go home, why are you keep coming back to me? You already have a girlfriend!"

"Fuck it, Nayeon! Sana isn't my girlfriend! She's just my friend!" I shouted out of frustration.

"O-Okay... T-Then find someone else. Don't bother me again."

"I only want you, Nayeon! W-Why can't you just give me another chance? You told me you want me back in your life! I'm here now, Nayeon! C-Can't you see?" My tears fell down.

This is so depressing. Fucking depressing.

"Forget what I've said. I was drunk that night, Jeongyeon. F-Forget it. How many times do I have to tell you to forget what happened that night?!" She yelled.

I walked in front of her and held her hands. She loves me, she's just scared.

"Nayeon, you love me. You still love me. Nabong, p-please be true to yourself!"

She still loves me. Nayeon still love me. I knew it. Even she was drunk that fucking night, I know she wants me back.

"Leave, J-Jeongyeon. Please, leave before I call the security." She pushed me as her tears fell down.

I shook my head. "I dated a lot of girls just to forget you, but nobody can replaced you. I tried forgetting about you, Nayeon." I chuckled. She made me crazy over her. "I'm such a clown because I can't fucking get you out of my head. I always think about you every year, every month, every week, every day, every hour, every minute, and even every fucking second! I think about you day and night! Sounds cheesy, but that's the truth. I tried everything, Nayeon. I tried everything just to forget you and I am sorry because I-I fucking can't."

I wipe my tears out of my eyes. I love her so much. I will do everything just to get her back, but she's making me feel so weak. She's pushing me away from her. She's giving me a reason to give her up.

"Nabong, if something is bothering you, please do tell me. N-Nabong, trust me. Trust me, I will do everything just to protect you. Y-You are my everything, Nayeon, and I will do anything that I could. I will do anything you want, just c-comeback to me." I said, weakly.

Are my friends right? Should I give myself some rest? I've been so miserable and I will be more miserable if I will not get Nayeon back. I don't know what to do now.

"My life has been miserable for the past 5 years. My life was messed up when you left me." I confessed. "Is that really what you want? Nayeon, you're giving me reason to give up on you. That's make me sad, that you're making me so weak, right now. I don't really want to give up yet, but you're giving me too much reason. You're pushing me away from you, and it hurts me so damn much. Do you want me to stop chasing you? Do you want me to stop loving you? Is that what you want, Nayeon?" This is fucking hurt. Seeing the love of your life pushing you away.

I looked at her. She's just looking on the ground, sobbing. I wanted to hug her so tight. I wanted to tell her that I can wait if I needed to wait for her. I wanted to tell her that everything is alright. As long as I am with her, everything is gonna be alright. Nayeon is my shining light. She always is.

I stared at her, I just stared at her and waited for her to speak up, to say something. But instead, I got no answer. Just silence. I guess, silence means yes?

I need to give myself a break, I need to let go of Nayeon. This life is so fucked up.

"Okay." I said and nod, repeatedly. "I will stop now. I'm sorry." I chuckled.

Funny how I believed that she wants me back to her life. I think this is the right choice, to stop chasing her. I need rest.

"I'm going to leave now. I'm sorry, Nayeon. I'll stop now. Take care of yourself. I love you." I weakly smiled at her and turned to my back.

This hurts so much. Walking away. Walking away from the love of your life. I guess, I need a lot of years to finally move on? This relationship hurts damn much.