"I was so lonely I just wanted some company, but no one wanted to give it to me...... So i took matter into my own hands."
Luisa's craving to kill started out small but eventually became a behavior, landing her in a mental institution where she me...
Something bad is 'bout to happen to me I don't know what, but I feel it coming Might be so sad, might leave my nose running I just hope she don't wanna leave me
One Month Later//
Luísa'spov//
Everything is going fine so far. Me and dani aren't as close but we at least get along now. We haven't been giving each other death glares or talking shit about each other so that's good. Her nose is finally healed. But something is still a bit off about her. Like the other day I walked past her room and I heard the voice of a guy and it didn't sound like any of the boys, she just told me she was watching a movie. Or when ever one of us walks into the room when she's on the phone she either quickly hops up and goes into a different room or just hangs up.
I still have my guard up with her though. I cant just trust her that easily. Everyone else in the house can also agree with her odd behavior. Most of the time I just brush it off and just ignore it. We were all currently planning a surprise party for Tyler since his birthday is coming up soon. We decided we would invite some people over, order a bunch of food, get some drinks and a few other things.
Not gonna lie though, I've been feeling a bit paranoid lately. My anxiety is worse than usual and I've been very shake. Usually when I'm around people I'll just bounce my leg to get me to calm down. When I'm alone I cope with it by sucking my thumb or any of my fingers.
I'm ashamed to say I still suck my thumb and I'm 16. Its the only thing that really calms me down at this point. I was now sitting in my room watching The Get Down for the fifth time now with the top of my thumb between my lips. I was so focused on the show I didn't even notice billie staring at me, like she was falling in love with me all over again.
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She grabs my wrist pulling my thumb out of my mouth. "You shouldn't suck your thumb, your teeth are too pretty." I blush embarrassed that she had caught me. She looks at me a bit confused for a bit, then a look of realization washes over her face. "Are you embarrassed because I caught you?" I was now on the brink of tears. When I feel really embarrassed my bodies first instinct is to cry and I hate.
"I only do it when I'm anxious or nervous, I don't just do it because I want to or anything I promise." I quickly wipe my tears not wanting her to know I waz crying.
"Baby, it's fine whatever help you calm down as long as its not substance abuse. I think it cute though, just dont do it too much. What are you anxious about anyways?" She raises an eyebrow.
"I honestly don't really know. I've just had this very bad feeling lately. And Danielle's odd behaviour isn't helping it. I've been listening to my mind lately and something isn't right." She gently rubs my shoulders giving me a soft kiss on the cheek. "It's fine Lisa(that's what she calls me for short or she call me Lu or tiny) maybe you just haven't been sleeping properly but there nothing to worry about I promise."
