"I was so lonely I just wanted some company, but no one wanted to give it to me...... So i took matter into my own hands."
Luisa's craving to kill started out small but eventually became a behavior, landing her in a mental institution where she me...
I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel Something really real so that I can really Feel like a person again I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel I just wanna feel something, I just wanna feel Something really real so that I can really Feel like a person again
Luisaspov//
I woke up to the feeling of Billie gently shaking me. I open my eyes and look around to see we were in her red lit room. I was wrapped in big fluffy blanket. She stood in front of me a bowl of pasta and a can of red bull. She sat next to me handing me the bowl as I begin to eat. I was stuffing my face without stopping. "Hey slow down you're gonna choke." She takes the bowl from me as she hands me the can of red bull. I take a few sips and hand her the can back as she sets it down on the night stand.
"Ok, lets get you cleaned up." She takes the blanket from me carrying me into the bathroom sitting me down on the sink counter. She goes over to the tub turning the water on. She comes back over to me unclipping my bra. She pulls a scrunchie off of her wrist putting my hair in to a messy bun.
She kneels down on the floor next to the tub rolling up her sleeves grabbing a loofa. She squeezes some vanilla scented body wash onto it and begins scrubbing my skin. I look down to see the water turning a light pink color from all of the dried blood washing off. The images of being in that warehouse began to start playing in my head.
I look over to the mirror across from me seeing both of my eyes slightly bruised. I barely even recognized my own reflection. I had dark circles under my eyes and the bruises were a slightly yellow and purple color.
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I began to break down, sobbing. I tried my best to keep from making any noise but failed. I let out a sob, quickly covering my mouth to conceal the noise. Billie puts the loofa down in the water wrapping her arms around me." It's ok now baby, I got you now I promise." I wanted to tell her so bad what they had done to me but I was scared. It was like if I had told her something might come after me.
She rinsed me off, washes my face and hair after taking me out of the tub. She puts a pair of her boxers on me going into the bathroom coming back with a first aid kit. "Can you lay down for me?" I lay back with my head on the pillows. She cleans off my cuts on my stomach with peroxide. After she puts ointment on them to help them heal. She then sits me up and wraps my stomach with bandages.
She puts her big over sized Siberia hills sweater on me. "Is it ok if I leave you alone for a bit?" I simply nod my head yes laying back down getting under the blankets as she goes into the bathroom.
I stair at the wall with everything just replaying in my head. I cant believe I fell for her lies. I hadn't realized I was crying again when I felt a tear roll over the bridge of my nose and drop into my other eye. I quickly wipe the tear away. I didn't feel like myself anymore. I felt humiliated and disgusted. I didn't wanna be in my own skin anymore. There was a small voice in my head yelling at me to tell billie what they had done to me. But there was also another one telling me not to or I would get hurt again.
I was pulled out of my thought by two arms grabbing my waist causing me to jump. "Its ok its just me." I roll over to face her laying my head on her chest. I open my mouth but then stop. I wanted to tell her so bad but I was scared. I just push it to the back of my head trying my best to fall asleep.
TIME SKIP//
Its been four days since I've been back. Which also meant four nights of night terrors, four nights of crying my self to sleep while Billie holds me and one seizure. My body can only handle so much stress and me just holding in that secret wasn't helping, I ended up having a seizure in my sleep during a night terror and woke up with every one standing over me crying.
The next morning I woke up and felt the other side of my bed was empty. I get up going down to the kitchen seeing everyone sitting at the dining room table. They all had concerned looks on their faces as I sat down. "Ok, Luísa so we have all been talking and we need you to be honest with us ok?" I nod my head yes about Billie's question.
"Did they do anything to you that you aren't telling us?" It was like a switch flipped on in my head, like a movie it started playing in my head. It made my skin crawl just thinking about it. I begin to cry as my words all come out in one sentence. "HE RAPED ME." A look of anger washes over everyone's face, especially Billie's.
My heart starts racing as my legs become weak giving out. It became difficult for me to breath as my knees hit the floor. I began to wheeze as my chest got tight. "LUISA ARE YOU OK?" Melanie runs to me kneeling down next to me. "I-Im having a-a panic attack." My chest felt like it was being squeezed. That's the last thing I felt before I passed out.
I woke up to the soft sound of billie singing but I didn't open my eyes yet I just laid there and listened.
As long as I'm here No one can hurt you Don't wanna lie here But you can learn to If I could change The way that you see yourself You wouldn't wonder why you hear They don't deserve you
I open my eyes looking up at her. I reach up gently placing my hand on her cheek. "You feel any better, love?" I nod my head yes as I sit up. "What did you guys ever do with Tanner and Dani?" I sit next to her laying my head on her shoulder. "They're in the basement, why?" I look up at her with an evil smirk on my face. "I wanna have a little fun."
