we're older now : homophobia sequel

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TW! Self harm.

Stanley's POV

I can't deny that I've wanted to do it again, even after leaving the hospital not even three days ago.

I get nervous when I'm with Bill.

I get very fucking nervous.

And I'm married.

I shouldn't feel like this.

And plus, I'm straight. I'm not bisexual anymore.

But when Bill kissed me at the hospital, it felt-

Amazing.

He never explained why he kissed me. We haven't even spoken about it since. But besides, we're both married. What're we supposed to do? Get divorced from our wives to be together?

YES STANLEY THATS EXACTLY WHAT YOU FUCKING DO
okay sorry.

I can't deny that I liked the kiss. It felt like we were kids again, except this time I didn't walk through a park just to see him making out with another girl.

I wonder why Richie and Eddie broke up. They never mentioned anything to us. They never told us why. Neither of them explained it.

Richie's POV

I laid there in bed, Eddie's head on my chest. I looked at him and laughed softly. I regret what I did and said when I was younger.

I regret everything I said that day.

Richie climbed through Eddie's window, as he usually did since his mother didn't like him. He had came in to visit Eddie. It was the day before he had to leave. "What's wrong?"

Eddie looked at him. "It's nothing."

"Don't lie to me."

"I said it's nothing, Rich."

"Why do you constantly lie to me when your upset? Just fucking tell me what's wrong with you!"

Eddie flinched. "Richie-"

"What is wrong with you?"

"What do you mean?"

"Why do you always look so fucking down? Ever since we left the school, it's like you don't want to see me."

"Richie, that's not it. And you know it."

"But is it, Eddie?"

"What?"

"What is going on with you? Did someone say something to you or something?"

"No. Can we just go get something to eat?"

"Don't dodge my question. And don't lie to me."

"I'm not ly-"

Richie grabbed him by the wrist, when he felt something rough against his hand. He turned Eddie's wrist over and looked at it. "What the hell, Eddie?"

"Richie-" he yanked his wrists back and went to grab Richie's hand, but he stood up.

"So, you slit your wrist and don't say anything to me? You don't ask me for help? Do you not fucking trust me, Eddie?"

"No, I do-"

"Then you should've talked to me before going and doing that to yourself!"

"Richie."

"You don't fucking hurt yourself over something probably stupid as hell! I'm your boyfriend for a reason! I'm here for you, Eddie!"

"Who is she?"

"What? Who?" he gave Eddie a confused look.

"Heather."

"Don't start with this, again-"

"If I'm supposed to talk to you, then talk to me."

"She's a friend, Eddie."

"She obviously doesn't think so."

"What're you talking about?"

"I've seen the way she acts around you."

"Wh-"

"When you make a joke, she pushes into you and puts her head on your chest to laugh. To just laugh."

"That doesn't-"

"She tries holding your hand, but you always whisper stop when I'm around."

"Eddie-"

"She tried to kiss you for christ sakes!"

"I tell her to stop even when you're not around-"

"B-"

"Eddie, shut up for a second and let me explain!" Eddie got quiet. "She didn't know I was gay. That's why I would tell her to stop. I told her the other day that I was gay. We're not friends anymore."

"Oh-"

"So don't just try to assume I'm cheating on you, when you're the only person I fucking love!"

"Then why do you treat me like this?"

"Like what?"

"Like I'm nothing when you find out something about me! I didn't tell you I cut because I didn't want you to be mad!"

"Oh, now it's on me? Why do you always put everything on me?!"

"What the fuck are you trying to say?"

Richie stared at Eddie for a second. "Fuck you."

"Get out."

"What-"

"I said get the hell out!"

Richie scoffed at his soon-to-be ex boyfriend before crawling out of the window.

I laid there with tears spilling out of my eyes. I don't know why I acted like that. I should've been easier on him. I shouldn't have yelled at him for cutting himself.

I hate myself.

okay so basically richie finds out that eddie cut himself once. and freaked out on him for not going to him and then they get into an argument and then richie leaves.

i didn't know another story for them to have broken up and i was trying to be creative so-

NOT SPELL CHECKED.