Long Nathan #Imagine part 9
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There is a lot of things people Dont know about you. Your life has always been very complicated. Your childhood was just messed up full of bad things happening all the time. You crawled under your bed and pulled out a old wooden box. It was your memory box you would store all the things that meant something to you in there. As you opened the box you saw photo's and letters and a bunch of other things you had kept hold of over the past years. The most important thing in there was your diary. The only thing was it was no ordinary diary. Instead of writing all the good things that had happened you would only write the bad. This diary had not been opened for 3 years because well it didn't really need to be opened but, today you felt like you should write in this diary again but it was quite a bad thing. When you used to write in the diary you were going through a tough time which lead to self harm and trying to kill your self. If you looked through the diary all that would come back to you again and make you depressed and upset but you did not care. Standing up you quickly ran to your desk and grabbed the nearest pen then started to write in it for the first time in 3 years. After you had finished writing it you decided to reed the diary and all the bad things came flooding back. Tears were falling down your face softly and slowly. Then something fell on the floor, out of the diary something you had never seen before. It was a letter addressed to you. You decided to open it and see what it was.
*Letter*
To my darling daughter
Its your father here and you are probably old enough to understand this letter now. Things were going great between me and your mum. We had you and life could not be better but that all changed. Your mum developed cancer and unfortunately it was terminal. You were far to young to understand what was going on. Your mum sadly died 3 months later. I loved your mum dearly and could not bare living without her. So this is just a good bye letter im going to find your mother because sometimes in life you just have to be with the people you love. Im not saying I Dont love you I just think you will be better living with people who will actually care for you just that little more. One day when you find that special person you love you will understand why I did this.
Love dad xx
*End of message*
Your mum and dad did not leave you they were just deeply in love. Tears were streaming down your face as you put the letter away.
Who needs parents any way??
You kept telling your self.
You felt like shit you then got into your head that the only way to stop the pain was to cut your self. When you was younger you used to do it and promised that you would not do it again but you were so hurt right now.
You grabbed the blade and took some deep breaths before cutting your self. The blood was dripping down your arm tears were falling violently down your face. What was you going to do??
Was anyone going to be able to stop you before it was too late??
