𝒊'𝒍𝒍 𝒍𝒐𝒗𝒆 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒇𝒐𝒓𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 - yeji x hyunjin FF

5.

yeji pov.

after my long discussion with the members, we were running a bit late and we had to go to the JYP building to start practicing for our upcoming events and for our schedule. our manager picked us up by car and we all went there. i listened to music on the way

(something kinda crazy by red velvet)

(a/n : i linked the lyric video above make sure to watch it you'll understand why i chose that song)

i had noticed the members kept looking at me in awe. it seemed like they were still shook from what i had told them earlier, but, they looked proud lol.

"pshh, these girls, i swear-" i chuckled to myself

at the same time, i thought of him. i mean, isn't it crazy? literally in less than a day i managed to literally tell my closest friends about, technically my biggest secret. it took me a lot of courage to tell them but in the end they had such a positive response so im very relieved.

gosh, why am i always thinking about that damn boy. is it one of the side effects of being mf in love?

"HWANG HYUNJIN WHY DO U MAKE ME FEEL THIS WAY ugh" i yelled in my head

it was clearly frustrating, just to know that my feelings were only one sided

(a/n : oh so you thought yeji LMAO)

and that he probably liked other girls and only considered me as...as a just a friend...

i decided to listen to music to calm myself; i put my airpods and put my music on shuffle something kinda crazy by red velvet came on...

"hah..what a coincidence, even my music is giving me songs that make me think of you" i sighed silently

as i listened to the song i also listened to the lyrics

~'i dont know what's happening to me' (0:06)

yeah i really dont, something crazy is indeed happening to me

~'maldo andwae maldo andwae andwae its love'  (1:17)

i sighed again hearing wendy's verse, unfortunately it was true, it IS love, but love hurts sometimes :(

~'it became reality when it was just something that happened in the movies before' (1:25)

it isnt reality... i wont become reality anytime soon too...

without realising, a sad expression grew on my face and it looked quite obvious, im not the best at hiding my feelings

"are you okay unnie?" asked chaeryeong, snapping me out of my depressing thoughts

i removed one airpod and replied to her, trying to pretend i was alright, but i knew chaery would immediately notice what was going on anyways

"yeah i guess...why?"

"youre lying, i know youre feeling down because you think that goddamn hwang hyunjin wont have the same feelings for you. STOP telling yourself that, you know im nearly always right most of the time and i KNOW for a fact he's going to fall for you. there is absolutely no doubt!"