letter sixteen

105 9 6

by brittanymariee0206

by brittanymariee0206

dear, zayn

I wanted to scream. I wanted to burst into tears. I wanted to get drunk and kill myself. but all I could do is stare at the wall in silence.

today is the day I write my suicide note.

not like you'll care you will forget my name and just focus on Tiffany.

so here it goes.

I'm only 15 I should be writing love letters. not suicide notes.

I'm only 15 I should be writing with pencils. not razors.

I'm only 15 I should be wanting to go out with friends. not wanting to be dead.

I tried really hard zayn. I really did. but today I woke up and couldn't handle it anymore.

you and your band. I hope you guys make it big. don't let me stop you.

I'm in love with you zayn.

I really fucking am. I knew this would kill me.

I'm sorry about our project.

i only have three words out of five. I'm sorry I didn't get to help you finish the project. turn mine in for me please?

mine are
zayn.
sweatshirts.
and windows.

hell. I'll even add one more before I go.

letters

when you explain them for me.

say this one thing for me.

" I shall not say what these words mean, even though this is what the project was all about but, in my eyes the project was to actually get to know someone and find meaning to their life. although mine didn't have many, I still had some, and I wanted to thank you mr.lancaster for making me find out who zayn really is. for all you sluts out there thinking he is the most bad ass guy out there who will fuck any girl just for pleasure. your wrong. he is the sweetest guy you will ever meet. and if your only with him for the fuck of it. you don't deserve him. no one knew zayn like I did. and zayn. I'm in love with you. yes I know love isn't real to you. but I do love you. and mr. Lancaster, I'm sorry for cursing but I don't give a damn anymore, I'm no longer here, that is why zayn is presenting my project and not myself. "

life is way to short to spend another day at war with yourself zayn. that's why I'm ending it here. take care of my sister zayn. she's all I had. she'll need someone.

and for Tiffany. let her get to know you like I did.

see ya later zayn.

love,
yes I said love zayn.
aleja.

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guys! are you crying like I'm crying?!
this is the end of dear, zayn
BUT this isn't the end of zayn and alejas love. JUST WAIT FOR IT.