𝖪𝖾𝖾𝗉 𝖬𝖾 𝖠𝗐𝖺𝗄𝖾 | 𝖢𝗁𝗈𝗂 𝖡𝖾𝗈𝗆𝗀𝗒𝗎 [Unedited]

09 : 𝖥𝖾𝖺𝗋 𝗈𝖿 𝖥𝖺𝗍𝖾

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I woke up miraculously at noon with a weird feeling inside me. With my eyes still closed, I felt for my surroundings. Someone was laying beside me. I paused.

What the..

My eyes shot open and found Beomgyu laying next to me. He was.. Sleeping. I scanned the surroundings and realized that I was yet again in his bedroom. I sat up weakly, feeling my belly hurt. As the covers draped down, I felt cold. That was when it hit me.

I had no clothes on.

"AH-.." I covered my mouth to keep myself from screaming.

Beomgyu stirred a bit and turned to his side. I lifted the covers to see if I somehow had my shorts on but no. I found them scattered on the floor instead. I tried to regain my memory of last night and the scenario of him and I kissing our way into his room played like a cursed, projected film. I slapped myself.

"What the fuck, Y/N?!" I quietly hissed.

I looked back at Beomgyu and he was still sound asleep. I couldn't believe I let all of those things happen! He just got out from a heartbreak!

"Oh God.." I ran a hand through my hair. "What have I done..?"

I slowly got out of bed and dressed. I felt disgusted with myself. It wasn't meant to happen. It was never supposed to happen. Why did I.. Urgh.. He's my friend. Yes, I wanted him to feel better but not this way. Not in the wrong way. I should've known better. I shouldn't have kissed back in the first place. What has gotten into me?! God!

"I'm so sorry.." I whispered and left without any further redo.

That mistake alone was enough to convince me to stay away for good. Not because I hated him for what happened, but because I didn't want things to get worse for him. I went back to my apartment, mentally cursing myself every now and then. I slammed the door shut and fell to the floor.

I could no longer help but to cry.

"Goddammit.." I sobbed and pulled my hair.

It was my first time. I vowed to myself not to give it to anybody until marriage. Yet now, I..

"Fuck..!"

I felt dirty. Ashamed. Embarrassed. Scared. I didn't know how I'd be able to face him if we meet along the way by any chance. If he wakes up.. Would he remember? Would he forget?