Broken love and promises (Book #1) Bambi (#Ongoing)

Chapter 4- Why me

I woke up and checked my phone looking at the time to see that it was 2:00 in the morning. I've been trying to call and text K all night and got no responses. I tried calling one more time but still no answer until I got a message request through Facebook from a girl named Mariah. I opened it up to see a message that brought fire to my ass but also broke me into a million pieces then it finally hit me this was the gut feeling I've been feeling. I started thinking  and questioning Why me? What did I do to deserve this? After everything we've been through ,But what got me the most was the pictures she sent afterwards. It was K laying beside her sleep tears instantly started to form, "Why me K"? I screamed to the phone I shook my best friend until she woke up "wtf bitch you gone kill me" she woke up yelling until she saw my face, "Bam what's wrong?" She asked me to come and I showed her my phone and she went off.

I looked for my suitcases and started putting things that's only mine and taking  them to my best friend's Jeep. I slammed 3 pictures down of me and K, then took my necklace off and laid it perfectly on the table with the key beside it. I made sure to lock up the house and put the spare key back under the flower pot and head to my car following my best friend. I was so angry to the point I wanted to pull up on him but,  instead I had to move on before I was somewhere I didn't want to be and the last thing I needed was drama. I knew it was something I just didn't think it'll hit home too soon.

We finally pulled up to my best friend's house and I was shocked at how huge the house my bitch had it made. Me and Purp go way back since jits growing up that's been my bitch thru thick-&-thin who never switched up or changed on me. She always played her part and never flipped on me she made sure I was straight even if it was her last and she knew i'll do just the same with no hesitation,  if we was mad at each other we wouldn't tell each other's business or  secrets that stayed between us we will talk it out and squash it eventually. But that's my bitch, my A1 since Day1 and it's up there from here on out.

I finally dazed out of my moment when I heard my bestie beep the horn "You good" she yelled". "Yea girl I'm just pulling myself together" I said, stepping out the car as I popped my trunk while she was heading to open the front door. As I was getting things out of my car I was deep in my feelings as I was heading towards the door.

Just sit that down bestie, go take a shower and get some sleep chil" she said. I gave her a forceful smile and made my way up the stairs. As I was going through the halls looking through every room I picked the room that stood out to me, I had never seen so much blue in my life. But let's set the record straight. I don't gang bang but blue is one of my colors as I walked in the bathroom as I connected the speaker to my phone on shuffle and then turned the shower on as hot as I can get it. I turned around and looked in the mirror at myself and started to see a broken hearted girl where K made her feel special yesterday but today like she was a nobody.

A girl that's been soooo damaged and still tried to love the best way she could with the little love she had left. I started to cry, not because of him because I keep getting hurt, I get attached to mf's and at the end I'm the one broken. I'm tired of being the shoulder to lean on or the person everyone calls when they wanna talk or need something. But, when it's my turn, who do I have no one and that's what comes with having a good heart people take that shit for granted. I got out of my daze until I realized the fog in the mirror.

I know I got so much on my plate but imma win and once this is over ima lick it up like nothing. I wiped my eyes and fixed my face and started stripping out my clothes as I stepped in the shower letting the water run down my back. I closed my eyes and just started to think about my next moves and putting things together. I stood there to let the water run. It was much needed to feel the heat and steam.

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Purp POV

I hate that my best friend is going through this especially with the type of heart she has. I honestly hate to see my best friend upset and in pain I can't imagine her poor lil heart.I kept trying to tell her these dudes are  all the same but, Kasen knows how much she loves him and that she'll do anything for him but, one thing I won't do is sit here and see her like this. My best friend has been through so much in life that it's time for her to live it up. So imma make sure she do it with me cause when we t/u we turn all the way up

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3:00 P.M

I woke up to the smell of cleaning products and music slowly echoing from downstairs. I got up and just looked around trying to figure out where I was until it hit me and everything was replaying in my head. I got myself together just to question myself "When did I fall asleep? I got up and headed to use the bathroom, I washed my hands and face and brushed my teeth and headed downstairs. "Glad to see you can join me" my best friend Purp said, sitting a plate of food in front of me with some juice.

"How you feeling" Purp asked, "I'm hurt but I'll get over it, I mean isn't that what hearts are meant for to be broken and life never tells us when it's gone happen or why it's gone happen" I said to Purp. "Well now you're talking but look, I know it's kind of early and with everything going on at the moment but you need a night out with some fun. You wanna go out to this party with me or what", she said all cheesy. I look at her and shake my head no, "so you telling me you gonna stay hidden in the house". I shook my head yes and my Purp was not going for it "be ready when I leave". I hop up and say  "sure there's no reason to be upset right" I said while rolling my eyes. My bestie gave me a hug and told me things will get better.

I finished my food and made my way back upstairs to my room to shower and find something to wear. As I made my way to the bathroom and cut the shower on high again as I plugged my phone up to the speaker and stripped from everything I had on. As I was stepping foot first in the shower my notification sound kept going off. I see It was Kasen trying to get in contact with me. I wasn't ready to forgive him, see him or to try and talk things out. What I needed right now was space and an open mind,

I just wanted to forget about him at the moment so I ignored his notifications. I scrubbed every part of my body till I couldn't no more. I laid my head back as I let the water roam my body as I thought about this situation. I just know I had to get on my feet, this isn't me to sit here and be moping around sad. I gotta get to a bag and secure it if anything. I got out the shower dried off and made my way to my nightstand  to lotion up.

I then put on my new Ariè set when I tell yall they had the best lace panties, yes, then I threw on some comfy pink shorts and a tank top with my slides. Today I was going to enjoy myself. It's time I focus on myself and no one else. I sat at the laptop desk and made sure to close my door since P was having some company over. I decided I would look for an apartment close by with the money I saved up. I then started looking for a decent paying job that was also close to my job and P house. I found a good job that offered a decent pay to do customer service so it was nothing too hard.

My phone notification went off signaling me that I had a text message. I looked at it and it was K asking to meet somewhere and that it was an emergency. Coming down stairs I see this guy that's cute and caught my attention. "Wea you going bam" purp asked taking my attention towards her, " I'm bout to head out for a min I'll call you" and with that I left.