Did She Survive High School? [DISCONTINUED]

4// First Day Back

Because of lockdown, my sleep schedule is soooooooooooooo messed up. Casually starting writing this less than two minutes since the last chapter. So I started writing this at exactly 3 am on June 12. I'm so excited to write on Heather's day!

Edit it is now the 24/25 of June because I wrote a sentence and gave up for a while but I'm currently in a power cut which is lovely 🙄. It's currently 12:18 am and the power is supposed to come back at 1:30 am so I'm waiting at the moment. It's at least over 34°c in my room rn and no fans or AC so I'm screwed. And no data 🙄

Edit 2: it is now the 29th June at 2:49 and the power came back on on the 25th at 12:58, why do I remember that I have no clue 😂 have a good day/night/evening.

Veronica p.o.v.

The alarm bellowed and I sleepily try and find it without opening my eyes. I throw my arms around trying to turn it off but I failed so I open my eyes with great strain and turning the clock off. I let JD sleep in and I get into the shower. I felt so calm for the first time in a while, I haven't been telling JD how I have been feeling because I don't want to worry him. I felt myself getting carried away with all my negative thoughts to notice that I let out a loud sob. I cover my mouth immediately shocked by my self conscious actions. I prayed to God that I didn't wake JD up. I quickly put the shampoo in my hair and washed it out.

I was putting the conditioner in my hair when I heard JD groan from outside the door and open the door, I don't think he noticed I was in the shower. I noticed that I was panicking and I lost my footing and slipped over hitting my head slightly. I yelped out in pain and held my head. "Veronica!" JD sounded mortified on the opposite side of the curtain. "I'm fine, don't open the curtains," I say embarrassed. I pull myself up and clean myself up. I didn't hear JD leave so I decided to start a conversation "umm I didn't wake you because I wanted you to sleep in." I say awkwardly. He chuckled "Thanks."

Trigger warning in the next chapter, potentially mentions self-harm and panic attacks/mental health problems

I turn the taps off and the shower stopped. I reach my hand out to blindly grab my towel and wrap it around my body. I step out to see a half-asleep JD watching my every move. I smile up at him but he looked worried "Did you hurt yourself?!" He asked spinning me around to see if he could see anything. I just tried to escape his grasp and walk out. I could feel my chest tightening. No, not now. Of all times why now! I get to the closet and change quickly and discreetly so JD doesn't see me. I sit down at his desk and look at I was putting the conditioner in my hair when I heard JD groan from outside the door and open the door, I don't think he noticed I was in the shower. I noticed that I was panicking and I lost my footing and slipped over hitting my head slightly. I yelped out in pain and held my head. "Veronica!" JD sounded mortified on the opposite side of the curtain. "I'm fine, don't open the curtains," I say embarrassed. I pull myself up and clean myself up. I didn't hear JD leave so I decided to start a conversation "umm I didn't wake you because I wanted you to sleep in." I say awkwardly. He chuckled "Thanks."

The mirror he had bought me to put on top so I could do my makeup. I brush my hair and just stare into the mirror. I held my hands close to my scalp, running my fingers through my hair and slightly pulling it out. I felt like I couldn't breathe no matter how hard I tried it felt like someone is stopping me from breathing like someone is pushing on my chest. I hear running footsteps then arms around me tight. "Veronica, calm down, please! Just breathe!" I close my eyes and lean back into him. "Veronica!" He shakes me lightly and I meet his eyes. I breathe rapidly as he tried to calm me but everything felt like a blur.