The Hospital Boy

[24] I Can Do This

**Isabella's POV** 

It's been two weeks since Jacob asked me to marry him. My dad approved of me marrying him but I had to wait until I was older. Yesterday was my birthday and my dad asked me if I wanted to remodeled the room for my own purposes, since I'm all moved in and everything. I told him yes! And now today we're gonna do it. 

Sadly, Stephanie had to fly back to New York, but she says that she will call me everyday and keep me updated at school. I'm not ready to go back to school just yet, so my dad said I can wait a little while longer until I can go back to school. Violet is home schooled so she's coming over to help me re do this room. 

Due to mental problems, I had to wait for my dad and everyone else to take EVERYTHING out of that room before I can set food into it. It took them about 3 days to get everything out. I decided to donate all my dolls and bears to charity, other kids need it more than I do. I gave some to Harmony, but the majority of I donated it. 

I was in my room on my laptop looking at colleges because I am graduating this year. Jacob walked in and sat next to me, "This better be wedding things." he said while kissing my cheek. I laughed, "No silly. Education first, wedding later." I said as I kissed him on the lips. "I'm looking at colleges, I'm debating on UCLA or San Fran State." I said. "Both hard to get into, but I know you'll get in." he said. I smiled as I kept looking, "Which college are you planning on going too?" I asked. He shrugged, "Maybe the same colleges as you." 

I looked at him, "But you do know we're not gonna be in the same room together. Or even the same building. We're both gonna be studying different majors." I said. He shrugged again, "I don't care, I wanna be where you're going." he said while kissing my head. In the middle of all of this, my dad walked in, "Oh goodness. Sorry, didn't mean to interupt, we're gonna paint now Bella. Wanna try to see if you can do it?" he asked me. I nodded as I got up from my bed and closed my laptop. 

"What if I get another panic attack...?" I asked scared. Jacob hugged me, "Then I'll stay out with you so you won't be alone." he told me. "Also, you can tell me what to put into that room and what not to put in." my dad told me. I was really nervous. I took a deep breath before leaving my room. I walked over to my old room, and slowly walked in. So far, so good. I walked more into the room and just stood in the middle. "Don't push your brain, Bella." my dad said. I nodded my head as I walked over to the paint. "Are you okay?" Jacob asked me. I nodded my head, "So far, yes." I said. 

I grabbed the paint brush and dipped into the paint, it was a blue color. Almost, sky blue. I started to paint the walls. Nothing has triggered my brain to have a panic attack, which is good. Harmony was sitting down in the corner, painting her side. Her shirt is all covered in paint, so does her hair and face. I didn't wanna say anything because she's having fun. 

I was almost done with my wall when I came across my height measurements. "July 7th, 2000", "October 23rd, 2003" I decided to walk back to the white paint, and I painted over the measurements. Just as I thought everything was going well. I started to breath heavily again. I dropped the paint and I started to say, "No." over and over again. I fell onto the floor as my dad and Jacob came over to me. I started to scream and cry. Harmony got scared and started to cry. My dad grabbed Harmony and Jacob grabbed me. "Daddy don't let her hurt me!" I said as Jacob carried me. 

"Isabella, shhh. You're okay." he told me. I covered my ears as I kept crying and screaming. Jacob told my dad to go with me and Jacob will go with Harmony. 

I ended up crying myself to sleep again. When I woke up, I was in my bed. I rubbed my eyes as I looked around. Jacob was sitting next to me sleeping while Harmony was playing with her dolls. "Hi Issybella!" she said. Jacob woke up by Harmony's yelling, "Huh what?" he said. I laughed at him, "You have drool on your face." I said. His face got all red as he wiped his face. I giggled as I got up from the bed, "How long was I asleep for?" I asked him. He got up and stretched, "I don't know, more than an hour cause I got bored watching you sleep so I fell asleep." he checked his phone, "You were asleep for 3 hours." he said. 

"Holy crap." I said. "Where's my dad?" I asked while walking out of my room. Jacob walked over to me and stopped in front of my old room's door, "In here. But don't go in, your dad told me you are not allowed in here until the room is done." he said. I crossed my arms, "And how am I suppose to tell her what to and what not to put in there?" I said. "He's gonna ask, but you are not allowed in this room." 

I sighed as I let my arms drop to my sides and then I walked downstairs. I waited until Jacob walked into the shower was when I ran upstairs again. I walked over to my old room, and I stepped inside. Everything looked the same, expect the walls were painted and it smelled like wet paint, ew. I saw there was just one wall missing paint. I looked around and checked if no one was here. The coast was cleared, so I grabbed the paint brush and I started to paint the walls. 

In the middle of me doing this, my dad walked in, and freaked out, "Isabella!" he said. I was on a ladder painting the top of the wall, "Hi daddy, I wanted to paint this wall." I told him. "Get down from there, you're endangering your brain. What if you have another panic attack? You're gonna fall and hurt yourself. Please, just get down from there." he said. I didn't listen to him, I continued to paint the wall. 

My dad got mad, "Get down from there or else." he said. I decided to push his buttons and looked at him, "Or else what? Hit me like mom did? Go ahead, let me get more emotionally scared from you." I said annoyed. It makes me mad on how my dad doesn't think that I can do this room without having a panic attack. It was just a little thing that triggered it and so far I haven't gotten one. 

My dad looked at me shocked, "You really think I'ma hit you? I'm not your mother and I'll never be. Please, just get down before you get hurt." he said. "Almost done." I said. I painted the last part of the wall and smiled, "Ahhh. Done." I dropped the paintbrush down onto the ground as I walked down the ladder. "It makes me mad on how you think I can't do this daddy." I said. He hugged me, "I know princess, but I don't wanna see you like that again. I swore to myself that I will never be like your mom. That I will do everything I can possible to see your happy and not hurt. I know you wanna do this room but I cannot risk you having another one of those panic attacks." 

I sighed as I hugged him back, "I know I know but trust me, I'll be fine. Believe me." 

**A.N.** 

Hiii!! Merry late Christmas! I hope everyone had an amazing day and got what they wanted :] I know I did. I got Cards Againist Humanity and holy crap its so funny xD the questions and answers are just really funny. Well, here's a nice long update for you. I love you all -Kat :]