Happiness Starts With You💜 (Taekook Ff) Completed

4 - MEMORY

JK pov

I'm now on my way home. Still thinking what Jin hyung told me.

" Why don't you try singing?"

Those words echoed in my head. Memories flooded my mind, another tear escaped my eyes. I saw a boy, busking on the road. Sadly, no one passing by noticed him.

I stayed there quietly and watched him as he sing a beautiful heart-melting melody. I stayed in that place until he finishes, I gave him some money and started walking, not towards home but, towards the park, where I always used to sit when I'm sad.

I arrived at the park and sat under a tree where nobody could find me. After staying there for an hour, I started walking towards my home.

But, the only change that is happening to me is, when I think about that particular incident which caused myself to shatter into pieces, Taetae's face came to my mind for a moment of time suddenly, and warmed my heart.

I want to know what happened to him and why he didn't come to college? . It's bothering me. It's a miraculously unusual. Because when I'm in my deep down sadness, thinking about that incident, I would never ever think about anything or anyone.

My mind would be engaged in that incident, not on any other things. Today it's different, in the middle of my broken self, his memory is making its way deep down in my broken pieces and trying to fix my broken pieces. In the middle of my stopped time, his memories flooded through and filling my frozen time.

'Am I falling for him?'

It's obvious but, my ego is playing a game with me and rejecting my own feelings for him. After what it felt like a million years, I decided to head back home. This time, I went home directly, not even bickering with Luna, I entered my room.

Luna knows something is wrong with me and something is bothering me , so she barged inside my room. But, as soon as she saw me, her expression changed into a sad one.

" Jungoo are you alright ? Is anything bothering you ?"

She asked softly to which I simply shaked my head as no .

" It's about that incident isn't it? It is not your fault Jungoo. It's not anyone's fault. Stop blaming yourself please "

she pleaded to which I just let out a sigh as an answer. I know she wanted to stay with me but she knew that, at this moment all I need some time alone. So, she didn't disturb me and went to her room .

After finishing all my night routines, I took my diary and started writing

'if a person is happy outside, it doesn't mean he is happy inside too, he may be broken and scarred, deep down which not everybody can see . Even white roses have a black shadow, everybody has a black shadow, which is tearing them apart, slowly taking every part of them.

And the painful past, from which they wanted to come out and set free. But, that's sadly, not possible always. And yeah, the happiest persons, on outside can have a saddest memory inside, which they wanted to erase, burn and throw it to a place where nobody could find, so that they can finally forget all the painful memories, forgive their misfortune and move on from their misery.

But ironically not all the memories could be thrown away and not everyone can be healed , with that drop of tear escaped again from my eyes. I gently wiped them off and continued writing.

After finishing the diary I walked to my window and there stood a bright moon, majestically decorating the starry sky.
I have a weird habit of talking to MOON.
She is the only person in this world, to whom I can rely on and tell all my problems .

Even the times when I feel lonely, her presence itself could make me feel special. Seeing her makes me feel that I'm not alone. I may seem weird to your eyes but, she is my one and only comfort zone in this world.

After having a heartfelt conversation with her, I went to bed and closed my eyes.

A small memory of my fallen angel dashed through my mind and a tint of small smile plastered on my lips unconsciously.

With that, I slowly drifted off to dreamland but, still smiling. The tears in my face is slowly replaced with a smile which crept on my lips. I don't know why, but his memories itself making my heart calm, which was erupting like a volcano moments ago.

Is my SOUL starting to heal? Is he healing my broken painful wounds latched on my SOUL?