Only You Always And Forever

Missing Her

Felix POV
Why she is so cranky I thought to my self . Did she know that I missed her I dont think so.
Yes I'm in love with Brooke for my whole life. But i was an idiot to realise this earlier. Frist I thought it is friendship concern but at that highschool gathering night I realized I'm definitely in love with her.
But I was a coward to admit my feelings. I couldn't abondend selina and she is so in love with me.
But at the party brooke came to me and start a chat with me so in first time in my life i listen to my heart not to brain. But it didn't end up very well. I took her virginity and in my mind I was happy that I'm her first man but I felt guilty because brooke believe in love and marriage and she always wanted to give her virginity to her husbund at her wedding night .
But bygones are bygones so we decide to froget about it but I couldent froget about her. But it doesn't affects my love life with selina. But I didnt knew that after that day my life will be miserable as hell.
The day that brooke confesses her love to me was the best day of my life but like an asshole I rejected her.
I'm the one who hurt her feelings so I'm the who should get punished.
When Selina betrayed me .I didn't felt any angry like other men. In that day I finally realized I'm in love with Brooke not Selina. But I was late...
Flashback.......
I was so down because of the incident which happen in the morning . I never thought that she will react like that. She accpect my rejection with a smile and just turn around and walked away.
She didn't beg to love to her so just walked away. I was little angry she didn't even asked to stay as before . We still can be friends but I knew it will be impossible after her reaction.
"Felix Felix why dont you packed yet honey " my mom shout from storage room.
With Mom's screaming I came out of brooke thoughts.
I went down to pack my things. Finally I'm moving with Selena.
We both will be working in same hospital and I thought it will be pretty convenient if we move together. I'm going to propose her tomorrow night after we are finished moving together. But why, when I'm thinking about it I doesn't feel excited.
I hate when these feeling come to my head. I feel like I' m such pathetic guy who cant organized my own feelings .
I took my essential books box and loaded it into my car.
"Felix are you sure you want to move with Selena. I really don't like her" my sister who came with the box which needed to be loaded to the car asked from me.
"Melanie I know she is you're least favourite person but try to understand she is going to be my future wife and I like her"
"Like her not Love her , Lixee if she is oung to be youre future wife you must love her not like her. You like me also and you always saying that."
"Ofcourse I love... her" I stuttered.
"Then why are you shuttering In my whole 18 years i only heard you're saying I Love you only for two persons. One is our mom and other is Brooklyn. "
Oh this girl is headach I need to get rid of her soon as possible. I thought .
"Meli I'm going to my apartment to unload these boxes Selina said she will be there by 6.30. Would you like to join us?" I asked from her.
"No I can't i going to brooke house today I need to help her to pack. She also moving. Sorry bro" she replied to me and hop into her car and drive away instantly.
I sighed and get into my truck and started driving but my thoughts were not about driving it about Brooke.
I stopped my car in the front porch went into inside of the house. I didnt see selina anywhere I was early and I thought surprising her so I went to our bedroom but when I saw the sence in the bed I only got shocked not angry.
Selina sandwiched between two guys of our faculty and having sex. She was very distracted she didn't realized I was there.
"I'm coming baby oh fuck harder matric"
But suddenly she open her eyes and she saw me. She got shocked. She stopped fucking . And ran towered me saying sorry.
But I was not in a mood to forgive her. I looked at her and said "I'm sorry it's not your fault I just realised I have never loved you I'm sorry we need to breakup. " and I just walked away.
I'm not either happy or unhappy.
Flashback ends..
But today I was jealous of that eric guy her husband. It was my place not his. I was fucking mess opportunity she gave.
Past six years I missed her badly. Neither alchole or my busy schedule helped me to froget my love Brooke. I missed her every minute. I love her and I want to tell her...

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