the trap

Effort towards nonbeing

I was looking at the ground, which was meters from me. Should I have the feeling "I am on the top of the world!"

Naah!!

I was on the building top!!

Holy shit!!! why am I there?? Naah , Lyra's not bold enough to go out on an adventure , thinking how harsh the life has been and end up giving a stunt of jumping from the top!!

I was wandering there as though searching for my peace. My head had a sharp throbbing pain, as though it is being hammered. Meanwhile ,

~flashback~

"N..N..Nick!! Where's mum?" I stutter holding my brother's hand.

"M..m..mum..!!! Mum.!!" He was sobbing. I had never seen Nick's watery tears.

~

Ouch!! The pain in my head!!

Yes! I lost my mum one year ago, when I had just taken admission in medical school. It was as though the biggest part of me had left me alone after cherishing my heart and soul with extraordinary perfection.

"Only if I had a last chance to see my mum" I screamed with a tear in my voice, towards the dark sky, which also seemed miserable for having lost its stars today.

Yes...I was not beside my mum at the last moment. I was somewhere, with my so called vacation or whatever.

The frequency of hammering was not reducing.....
Meanwhile my brain has got more,

~flashback~

"Lyra!! dude, be practicle we cannot be together" said he in fury. Okay he,
Aarav.

"Wh...

"Look, we will not work out" and he just forced my hand out of his. And he left me wailing on the footpath.

~

Aahhh!! my head...

"That complete arse dint even look back at me. Was I just a piece of trash to him??"my eyes were pooled and could not hold enough, so i shed the tears out.

Yess...I had a boyfriend, Aarav. He was in same class as mine. And it all started in my first year of med school. Not far, it has taken him the whole six months to conclude that he'll not work out with me. That idiot....

Now I was gazing at the broken mirror, which Mrs.Carter had added to the trash which is to be sent for recycling. I stared at me for a couple of minutes. Dark hair fallen on shoulder, an immaculate face which has clear evidence of weep, with dark circles under my eyes, pale lips, in a white nightgown and barefoot lying on the floor helpless.

I feel like cutting my head from face and torso. The pain has no plans of subsiding...

Buttt the brain in that head has got much more,
Not far, it was today,

~flashback~

Everyone in my class was getting there answer papers. Then I hear..

"Lyra Clothilde Kettleburn"

I leave my seat, walk a few steps, faced the professor, take my answer paper, gripping it with all my might, all the way along to my seat and I opened and had a minute of gape at my score. The score left a dark velvety sheet over my eyes.

After the class, I faced no one. Not even Safa, my best friend.

"Hey!! Lyraaa... what's the score??" I hear a devilish voice with a low cheer from other two, from the back.

"Ignore them Lyra...ignore...

"And how's Aarav, darling!?" with the same freaking tone and laughter.

"Heard that you were dumped by a guy, because he got another pretty face. And sooo..here, we are to present "The trash of the Century" Award to Miss. Lyra Kettleburn". That Iona said it so loud that all the eyes in the corridor were gaping at me.

That was enough of her, I calmed myslef down and turned to those bitch like faces ...
"None of your businesses"

~

I still had my score in my head. I failed soo badly in three out of four subjects.
Damn...what's wrong with me. I studied so well in my schooling.

Aahhhh....

Aaaaahhhhh...

My head....

It may burst out at any moment...

I wanted to go to my room to take my pills.

Pills.......!!!

For what!??

Okay, I have Migraine!!! Severe one, I may add.

I stood up. But the world in front of me was swinging and my feet cannot bear my weight. I tried hard to reach towards the steps, but where i ended up was to the wall.

I decided to lean on it. As I threw myself over the wall, it vanished.
Yeah..it was my hallucination. It wasn't the wall, but the parapet of terrace which had no good intentions and neither a good height to embrace me. And the ground under my feet threw me into the thin air.

And I, who was in air now, had fallen from a twenty storied building. I wanted to scream but the fear in me did not let the voice to come out. I was being thrown towards earth with all might.

I wished that I had wings ...so that i could protect myself from dying. For the first time in my last two years, I did not wish to be dead!!! I closed my eyes and tried to find my mum in darkness, as though I shud inform her that I'll be there with her.

And finally after a long journey from a rooftop, I landed on earth. And finally the hammering in my head also came to an halt!!

I hope it's interesting. And you surely would want to know what happened to Lyra!!

Soo, stay tuned for the next part;)