No, I didn't Know. (Rape,Abuse)

Part 1.

No I didn't know.

I had no idea what I had brought upon myself.

When I called him to my room.

I was only 4, maybe 5.

I just wanted someone to sleep with me.

No I didn't know..

I was scared of the dark.

He laid there on my mattress that was on the floor.

He pulled his thing out from his boxers.

No I didn't know...

He made me touch it, rub it.

Stupid stupid child.

Why did I call him in my room.

No I didn't know....

After he came in my room without me asking.

Stupid stupid stupid child.

No I didn't know.....

It got worse when mother wasn't home.

So unaware,naive,to what he was doing to me.

I asked for it.