Love Me Back

Chapter 6

“Miss Williams I think you should take a break or something” Dean suggests while we’re sat eating breakfast, in the morning I was greeted by officers who wanted my view of last night’s incident and I’d given them half-heartedly. Once they had left Dean had lead me into the kitchen where he had made the both of us some breakfast. Oh and we’re back to Miss Williams.

“I’m fine” I reply back nonchalantly keeping my head held high, I won’t be showing to him that his words are razor sharp and were right now slicing me.

“Last night was quite a traumatic incid…”
“Mr Carter, I appreciate what you’ve done” I step down the stool. “I think I’ve overstayed my welcome” I tell him abruptly, I couldn’t stand here and listen to whatever was flying through his mouth. He didn’t realize how much his words affected me, and after rejecting me last night… I couldn’t do this anymore. I’m feeling completely drained, as if all my energy has been sucked out. His actions, his words made me want to rip out my heart with my bare hands, I want the aching longing to disappear from within me.

“I’ll just go and get dressed” I inform him then turn heading for the flight of stairs. Dean’s ignorance is affecting me more than it should’ve. I thought I prepared myself fully before I’d come in front of him. But damn him.

I stride back into the bedroom and find my clothes neatly sitting on the bed, checking them I realize they’ve been washed however I didn’t give them over for the wash which only means Dean had took them and had them washed. I hug my clothes to my chest inhaling the warm sweet smell reminding me of my old Dean…

I brush away my thoughts deciding to get dressed and out the door. A small part of me didn’t want to look back, I just wanted to move forward without having to be pulled back.

“I’ll drop you off” Dean speaks as soon as I am downstairs, his back facing me with his hands pushed inside his pocket as he continues to stare outside.

“I can go by myself” I reply not wanting favours of him.

“Miss Williams how will you exactly get home without a car?” he turns around staring at me intently.

“I don't know if you care to remember, there’s are cabs and taxis available here Mr Carter” I punctuate my words tightly feeling slightly irritated.

“I’m still going to drop you off, I’d prefer that rather than sitting here wondering if you’ve reached your house safely”

“Why do you care if I’ve reached home safely or not?” I ask him in a cold tone, I should’ve been pleased with his concern but this concern was being shown for his employee, and for a fellow human, not for his wife.

“So if something happens, God forbid. I don't want to be held accountable or blamed by my own conscience” he shrugs.

“I’ll be fine”

“I insist” He bites out in a determined tone.   

You stubborn… “Fine” I sigh heavily, either we could stand here and argue waiting for someone to give in but I know Dean a little too well, he wouldn’t give in.

When he drops me off, there are no words exchanged between the both of us, other than a simple thank you, I say nothing else. I walk towards my building, just before I was about to turn around to catch a glimpse of him I hear the car riding away, when I do look over my shoulder he’s gone.

The next couple of days were busy for me, I had kept the incident of that night to myself, I didn’t need Caitlyn showering me with sympathy, she was already doing it because of Dean’s indifference towards me. Plus I don't think I could handle answering all her questions. It was hard just to speak to the officers about that night, I couldn’t do it again.