Noah's vent/ranting

Unimportant.

I find that the people around me don't seem to understand anything I say. I know I have a tendency to ramble on about things and it may be difficult to keep up, but when I talk about something that is important to me it feels like no one listens or even cares. It's hard for me to find a place to fit in, even in my own system- I'm always feeling out of place and just blatantly irrelevant to any situation. My system members tell me we are all here for a reason but that's hard to believe when I do not feel like I am of any importance to a single person. I'm just existing and as bearable as that seems it's more difficult to exist without reason than to be here with a goal and meaning. At least the others know what they are doing half the time, but I'm just standing around not know why I'm here or what I'm supposed to do. I guess I'm being rather rudimentary complaining about such minuscule dilemmas but I am just greatly confused about my importance at this point. I have so many quandaries yet no one who cares to answer them. That's another concern of mine. We'll see how the rest of the night goes, and hopefully my system members are having a better one than I.