Noah's vent/ranting

Bittersweet feeling

I'm not prepared for this.
The way I'm feeling, it's taken me by surprise. I didn't expect to ever... to ever love someone, especially not them. They're always so reckless and have no regards to their own safety half of the time, and their actions are idiotic at best. They broke into my house for gods sake- with life threatening injuries, too. I'm not entirely sure what to make of this... I definitely don't know how to handle it, either. even still, they're always able to make me smile, even when I don't feel the best. They just have this way of getting into my head and it makes me second guess everything I do which is both annoying and intriguing. I've never really felt like this before. It's confusing and frustrating yet... in a way, it's nice.. I don't... I don't know what to do. For the first time in quite awhile, I haven't a clue of what's to come. I'm helpless, really... and apparently... hopelessly in love. I am undoubtedly going to make a fool of myself. There's a first time for everything, and I suppose I might as well enjoy this bittersweet feeling while I can.
I just don't want to lose him. Not again.