Quantum Soul

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Over the weeks, I only stayed with her, I had to leave my friends under pain of being yelled at by my "girlfriend". I did even more things for her, I offered her roses, I went to see her at her Handball competitions, I even made her poems but her joy only lasted a few times before she blamed me for not being up to par. I was in pain, very in pain. I have never felt such intense pain in my entire life. I thought I was the problem.

Every day I had the right to be blamed, my feelings had become necrotic but I continued to get attached, it hurt me but I wanted to believe it.

One evening I went out with friends to have a good time because I missed them but throughout the evening I was harassed by messages from her. She told me that I was the worst boyfriend in the world, that I was not a good person. I spent a horrible evening, I was constantly isolated to answer him at the expense of my friends.

She asked me to make great efforts and quickly. Otherwise she would leave me again. I didn't want to relive what I experienced on Christmas Eve anymore so I outdid myself even more. I felt alone and I could not tell him because for her, she was the victim and if I said something against her I was called a big egoist.

The months passed and I began to no longer really feel anything for her. She broke my heart and my love for her fled. I started to stay a little more distant because I understood that I would not achieve anything with her but she continued to cling to me, I had the impression that she did not want me to be happy by moving away from her. She even entered my house without my knowing it and sometimes even without me being there. It was becoming more and more oppressive.