Dear Michael, || m.c + l.h

/twelve/

michael

my phone woke me up. it was ringing. i checked the time.

4:06 a.m.

i sighed and answered, not looking at who it was.

"hello?"

"michael baby come back i miss you." my mum sniffled.

"mum i miss you too. i- i can't come back. i'm in new york with dad now. i'll come visit i promise."

"i'm so sorry i was horrible to you." she sobbed.

"hey, you weren't horrible. please calm down. i love you."

"i love you too. it's been so l- long."

"i know, mum."

"do you miss me?"

"a lot."

"i remember when we used to make sugar cookies, and you would blow flour in my face. oh baby please come back i n- need you."

"mum i'll come visit before christmas. i promise."

"o- okay."

"did you take your meds today?"

"not yet."

"mum you have to take them."

"i know." she sniffled again.

"i love you, alright? i have to get going. it's early here. we'll talk later."

"i love you, michael."

"i know, mum." i sighed and hung up. i miss seeing my mum, it's been three years since we last saw each other. we talk a lot, and she has visiting days at the institution but i can never being myself to go. she has emotional intensity disorder and hypomania. she's also suicidal, so my family figured it would be best to have her admitted to an institution. she's been doing so much better. i'm so proud of her. i miss her so much... stop it michael, you'll start crying. i sighed and closed my eyes, trying to go back to sleep but i couldn't. i decided to text luke.

michael: r u awake :(

lukey: yeah, what's wrong mikey? r u okay?

michael: i just miss my mother.

lukey: do u wanna call me & talk about it?

michael: yeah. call u in a sec.

i called his contact and he answered quickly.

"hey." i whispered.

"talk to me. i'll listen." he said. he had sleep in his voice, he sounded so adorable.

"m- my mum is in australia. she's in sort of a mental institution. she's not crazy, just suicidal and some other stuff. she calls me a lot, telling me how much she misses me. i haven't seen her in three years. i can't bring myself to go and see her so sad, being locked in there. she hates it."

"i think maybe seeing her will help you and her. it'll be good you the both of you."

"i want to, i'm just scared."

"take your time, but don't take too long. she's probably hurt just like you are, not seeing someone you love for three years."

"yeah, i know." i sighed. he coughed.

"are you sick, lukey?"

"just a cold. i'll be okay." he coughed again.

"okay. take medicine. i don't want you to feel bad."

"i have a question."

"okay."

"would you come to my aunts wedding as m- my- never mind."

"as your date? i'd love to."

"really?"

"yes luke, i like you. a lot."

"i like you a lot too." i could tell he was smiling.

"do you wanna go to bed?" i asked.

"no. i like talking to you. you make me happy."