Lani
I'm finally back home and in my bed
"Phone "I hear Larenz say
I get it and say "Hello"
"Lani?is this you?"I hear Devante brother Dalvin say
"Yea it's me "I say
"Can you meet me at Your other house?"he says referring to me and Ds house
"I don't know what's going on"I say
"Please D needs you"he says and I roll my eyes
"Fine "I say
The only reason I'm going is cause I feel bad
Jada
I feel amazing
My album release party is tomorrow night,money is coming in,and Pac and I are back on good terms
That little something we did a couple days ago was a last time thing I jus needed it
"Jay wassup girl why you smiling like that"Lisa says and I giggle
"Nothing girl I'm jus happy to be alive "I say
"Mmmm"she says
T walks by and sis is actually smiling
"Is that a smile I see?"Lisa says
"Girl hush I'm finna go run some errands "she says leaving
Chilli comes in mad as usual
"Ok good I didn't wanna be the only bitch not getting sum "Lisa says and I laugh
Chill flips her off and goes back in her room
"We need to go shopping for tomorrow "I say
"Let's go "she says as we leave
Eazy
"Eric you completely humiliated me"Tomica nags on and on about New York
"I got her off you didn't I?"I say
"Don't matter I wouldn't have to fight over you if you were faithful "She says
"Whatever I never touched Lani and I was never in Kim's face it's the other way around I swear"I say
"Whatever Eric Fuck you"she says walking out the door and slamming it
I breath in deep and exhale
I sit on the couch and turn on the Tv
"Daddy"I hear my babygirl Erica come out her room
"Yes baby ,I'm sorry if we woke you up"I say as she sits in my lap
"Your okay"she says closing her eyes
I get comfortable and so she can fall back asleep
Like I've said before I don't care who thinks what about me but My kids
Lani
I walk into Devante and I house and it looks dirty as hell
"Wat is this"I say
I walk up the stairs and Devante is laying there with his hands over his face
"D"I say
He jumps up "Baby"he says jumping over to me
He picks me up and throws me on the bed kissing me
"Damn "I say laughing
"I missed you so much ma"he says
"I missed you too "I say
"Ima be honest with you for now on and ima stop hurting you too"he says and I feel the guilt taking over my body as he goes into talking about how much he misses me
"I suffer from a bipolar disorder and sometimes I get in moods where I get really aggravated to where I start putting my hands on people and I'm sorry but for you ima start taking my pills more seriously "he says explaining it all too me
"It's okay baby I just do t wanna be left in the dark"I say
"Another thing.."he says
"I did while you were away sleep with another woman"he says and all my guilt goes away..
"Baby I'm sorry "he says cupping my face as he sees the tears falling
I know this shit seems one sided but I'm still hurt as hell
"I'm not mad at you "I say as he kisses my forehead
"Let me take you out to eat I feel really bad "He says
He takes me out and paparazzi spot us and snaps as many pictures they can
"Do y'all date?"I head over and over again
"This is my girlfriend "I hear Devante says making them go crazy
I smile cause we use to just ignore them
This is a great new start for us
"I love you"he says and that right there messed me up,I'm not in love with him
"Love you too"I say fake smiling
