Heartbreak and Heartbeats (Andley)

First Kiss on Chirstmas Day

A/N What another update, WOW I love treating you guys don't I! The song is Heart of Fire, I try to find the right song to describe my chapters! (if you have a better song tell me, but listen to this while reading!)

I can't believe I had done it. Juliet looked at me with teary eyes, with water slowly streaming down her red cheek. Jake went over to her and picked her up, then walked outside, I promptly heard a car door open then slam with an engine starting up. The guys looked at me hurt then left, Ash was the last to go, he looked at me with sadness but distant hope in his eyes.

"Ash I-" his look stopped me, he then turned and left. The door closed and I was left alone, with my thoughts, my demons. I looked in the mirror and all I saw was a monster burning his two blue eyes into my own. I broke down tears flowing freely down my face.

I needed something to distract me, I needed something to stop me from ever doing that again. I went into the bathroom and grabbed my shaving razor, I looked at the reflection, my face, with puffy red eyes and hallow cheeks. I looked at my wrist and connected the blade with my flesh. I was doing what I inspired others, told others not to do, look at me being so stupid, hypocritical. It made me angrier at myself.

I cut deeper, and deeper, the blood reminding me in crimson letters not to do it again. The pain almost felt good, almost stopped me from feeling the empty disappear, the self loathing I called home. I was coaxing blood from under my skin, drops of the devils kin. When I stopped and looked at what I had done I sighed, I felt disappointed, ridiculous. Going into my room, I laid myself down on the pillows, holding a black towel to my arm until it stopped bleeding. I gathered my pillows and made them into a human like figure that I then cuddled, look at me being so pathetic, stupid. It make me sick that I was acting this way.

The bleeding stopped as Pixie came though my door, "hay girl." She climbed on my bed and I began to stroke her, it soothed me, she began to lick my arm gently then looked at me like she knew what I had done. I cried into her soft fur, she laid there with me until the next morning. It looked like I was going to spend Christmas day alone.

I woke up in a cold sweat, walked down the stairs and put some bread in the toaster, then got out my Skippy's peanut butter and a knife. I thought about all that had happened over the last few days as I prepared my breakfast. Was it something I had done to cause Dragonfly, no, not any more, Juliet to cheat? Was it all my fault, did I do this? I sat down on the sofa and tried to quite my thoughts. I heard a knock on the door, I went over and opened it. Ashley stood in the doorway, sad but trying to hide it.

"why are you here?"

"No one should cry on Christmas Day, No one should be alone."

I stood there shocked, he walked in and stood in the middle of the living room. I closed the door and sat down. Ash then joined me. We stayed quite just enjoying each other's company until I couldn't take it. I turned to face him and whispered softly "It's all my fault." He looked at me and I collapsed on his shoulder, he was surprised but hugged me softly, running calming stokes down my back. I looked up into his kind brown eyes, he looked into mine, I removed my hands from him but my sleeves had rolled up, revealing big red lines.

"Andy" Ash breathed. He slowly rolled my sleeve up to reveal the damage I had inflicted , then he put both his hands on my arm and lightly traced them. He looked at me with pleading eyes, but I could give no answer without breaking his heart. He put a hand on my head and stroked my hair, we both leaned in and his lips connected with mine, my heart fluttered. I never knew love like this. And above us the mistletoe gleamed as our eyes closed in passion.

A/N AND THE ANDLEY HAS ARRIVED! YOUR WELCOME! But will Andy regret his actions and see them as a desperate act for comfort in these bad times! You'll have to wait! Votes and comments are welcome (Please do I'm so alone in this lonely computer/tablet screen.) Until next time!