Parker Pan

Four

*Warning this chapter has mentions of attempted suicide.*
Parker POV
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I again woke up to my alarm. This time more dread full because it was family day. I simply put on a fake smile and got dressed. In an outfit my mother probaly wouldn't approve of.
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Oh who am I kidding she doesn't approve of anything I wear. I grabbed my phone and headed to Goodness Class. I got there and sat in the chair and put my head down. "Good Morning Parker." F.G. said. "Morning." I said. "Now what would your family say if they saw you in that?" She asked. I sat up not realizing that the Vk's were here. "My dad would tell me to cover up. My brother would say I look stupid. Mother would say something along the lines of, 'You look like a slut. Why can't you be more like your brother.' Then again I could care less of her opinion." I said before putting my head back down. I could feel their sympathetic looks at me. "But why don't I go find out what they would say." I say getting up and leaving. I then run into Tanner. "Hey bestie." He said. I knew he was singling to the fact that his parents were near. "Hey man." I said. Then his parents showed up. "Sweetheart you look beautiful." Tiana said. "Thank you." I said with a smile. Oh right, Tanner was in a green button up with light blue none ripped Jean's. Tiana was in a dark green pantsuit, and Naveen was in the same outfit as Tanner. "I brought beignets." She said giving me a container. "Have I ever told you I loved you." I said hugging the beignets. "Were talking to her or the beignets?" Naveen joked. "Both." I said. "Well we best get to the courtyard." Tanner said. "Yea I'll meet you there. I'm just gonna take these to my room." I said. They nodded and walked of but not before giving me hugs.
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Time skip
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I was sitting in my room with my head in my hands. Trying to figure out how to approach my parents. Audrey texted me what happend in the courtyard. I had the suicide note I wrote for my mom last time I got pushed over that ledge. My thoughts were interrupted by a knock on my door. I put the note in my pocket and opened it.
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3rd pov
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Parker opened the door to see her mother. "Why were you not at the courtyard." She asked her daughter. "I was busy." Parker replied coldly, walking out and shutting the door. "Being lazy no doubt." Wendy said. "No, I was thinking. Wondering on why you don't love me." Parker said. Right when she said this 4 Vk's heard her and stood around the corner. They didn't want to eavesdrop but they also wanted to hear the conversation. "What are you talking about. I love you, just not as much as I love your brother." Wendy said. Parker took the note out of pocket. "No, you hate me. This is proof." Parker said. "A letter." Wendy said. "Not just any letter. The letter I wrote for you, the last time I got pushed over the edge. You didn't read it." Parker said. "Yes I did." Wendy said. "What does it say?" Parker questioned her mother. "About how you love me and it's not my fault how you did that." Wendy said unsure. "No. Not even close." Parker said close to crying. "Then what's it say." Wendy asked. Parker opened the envelope and took the letter out unfolding it.
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In the letter

Hey mama, just wanted to tell you I love you
Don't know if I say it enough
But I've been really prayin' for us
And I thank god for you
Man, I look up to you, man
If I was in trouble, I need somebody I run to you
If I never told you, you was my idol like really my idol
Whatever you said to me I took it in, like it was the bible
When you look at me, I wanna know, the feelin' inside you
I guess sometimes I just wonder if you feel the way I do
Remember my 10th birthday, when you apologiezed
You couldn't buy cake so you bought me McDonald's fries
I thanked you but you got my brother gifts alot of times
For me you say can use some time, but never got the time
I figured it was for the bills, but for real how you really feel
I know this birthday around tax time so is that what it is
I know you gotta love me mom, 'cause every moma loves ther kids
I just really think it's fucked up but I guess it is what it is
Remember recitals, I played the piano, I waited and you never came
You said you was working
But got home from work from my brother, went to every game
He never even really scored, but you was just there to support
But I know tournie is more fun to watch then piano on show
I really forgive you! And imma' continue forgiving you
I made up a whole lot of reasons, 'cause I know it can't be intentional
When I was in the hospital, you said you hope I got better
When he was down to whether, you was in the Hospital till' he got better
I don't understand!
When you look at me, I feel like you regret me
But the look inside your eyes when you see him sometimes affect me
I was tryin' to be so perfect, just to feel like you accept me
I love the way you love, but you love everyone except me!
Be honest, Mom!
When nobody come thru' for you, I'm present
But when Christmas come around, you don't think to get me a present
Man, that's fucked up!
'Cause I spent my whole life tryin' to impress you
But I guess I ain't really special

But this is what I get for having expectations
'Cause I forgot where I came from
What if I'm gone, when you wake up?
Would it then all make you wake up?

You really showed me how much a parent could love their child
So much that they forget they got another child
Man, my whole life I just wanted to make my mother proud
One day if you see the difference, when I can't come around.
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By the time Parker was done reading she was crying. Wendy was close. "Sweetheart I never knew you felt like that." Wendy said. "You didn't know because you never cared. Winn didn't know because he didn't care. Dad didn't know because he didn't care. Four people cared, Audrey cared, Tanner cared, Queen Tiana cared, King Naveen cared. You three didn't. You never have and never will." Parker said. "I'll prove to you I care baby." Wendy said. "How Wendy." Parker said. "I will go to every piano retail from now on." Wendy said hopefully. "I don't do piano any more." Parker said before walking into her room slamming and shutting the door. Wendy then let out a sob before walking to find her husband and son.
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Parker POV
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I sat on my bed crying in a little ball. As I was crying there was a soft knock on the door. "Go away, Wendy." I said with pure hatred. "It's not Wendy." Said familiar voice out I couldn't put my finger on it. So I reluctantly got up and opened the door to see Evie. "Hey." I said in a softer voice. "Hello. I heard what happened and I just wanted to make sure you were alright." She said sympathetically. "If you don't mind I could give you the tour of my life." I said. "That would be nice." She said. I just moved out of the way so she could come in. She came in and we sat down on my bed.