Amnesia (Overload Book 1)

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I wake to a loud thud in my room. Jolting upright, and rubbing my eyes to enhance my vision slightly.

"Well done Ryan, you woke her." I hear a feminine voice whisper, that voice belonging to Amber.

"To be fair, it's 1 o'clock in the afternoon. She had to wake up sometime." He protests, as the curly mess of brown hair becomes clearer.

"Morning?" I question, yawning and stretching my arms up. Before pulling back the duvet and getting out of bed.

"Morning Als, how'd you sleep?" Amber questions, seating herself upon my mattress. As, I quickly decide to stay in my monkey onesie, comfortable and warm.

"Well, to be honest... The same that I have since the incident. I stayed awake until 1 in the morning and then finally decided I was too emotionally drained to carry on being awake. So, I forced myself to sleep and then I was rudely awakened." I announce, folding my arms whilst glaring somewhat playfully at Ryan.

"Ya know it'll be okay? I mean Jordi will see sense soon! He has to. You and Jordi are meant to be together, not you and Joey." Ryan announces, sitting down next to Amber on the mattress. Cheekily placing his arm around her.

"I'm not too sure about that one Ry. I mean I do love the boy to pieces. But, he believes Clover's lies to my truth. Loving someone, means you have to trust them completely.." I trail off, slamming down my bedside picture of Jordi and I that I had kept and put into a frame, from the first day in the canopy. I could not bare to face him at this point.

I try and stay strong, I try so damn hard, smiling when I am meant to smile, laughing when a joke is told, speaking when I'm asked to but I can only do this for so long before I break down and cry which is what I try not to do, but fail.

"Oh Als come here", Ryan coos, rushing to my side knowing how much this pains me knowing how the love of my life thinks, no don't think, believes I would go and secretly date a guy I know as close as a brother to me.

"I just want Jordi back Ryan. I want him back" I cry into his shirt, forgetting for a few seconds that my eye makeup is going to go everywhere. The same eye makeup I had, had on since yesterday. Meaning my mascara was clumped up on my eyelashes, and my eyeshadow was smudged, making me look like some sort of exotic panda.

Once realisation hits, that I'm going to ruin Ryan's white t-shirt, I quickly pull away from the warm embrace. "I'm so sorry," I mumble, trying to search around for something to clean his shirt with.

I find some make-up removal wipes. I suppose these had to do. "Take one of these, it should help." I announce, chucking the packet over to Ryan.

"Als, it's okay. Stop worrying about it! It'll come out in the wash." Ryan says, in attempt to try and calm me down out of my worried fluster.

"No, I always manage to ruin things. Just take the wipe." I instruct, taking one out of the packet and placing it in his hand.

"What did you just say?" Amber questions, getting up from my bed and walking over to me. Stopping just in front of me.

"I told him to take --"

"No, before that." She whispers, placing her two hands on my shoulders.

"I said I always ruin things... It's true though isn't it? I've ruined the longest friendship I've had and my most valued, and in turn I've lost the person I cared about most. I damage things - and people.. To the point where the only thing they can do is leave. Sometimes, I just think that maybe it would be better if I left instead." I whisper, shaking Ambers hands from my shoulder as I walk back over to my bed.