Amnesia (Overload Book 1)

14

A few hours had passed, since the whole commotion in public. Since I had said, what I so desperately needed to say to Jordi.

Fair enough he was one of the people that I cared about, still care about even. But, I can't let him or anyone else treat me like dirt. I did once before and look where that got me.

The rest of us;Candy, Hollie, Kayla, Ryan, Joey and Ollie, are currently in a local fish shop. Ordering the food we so desperately needed after one very long and chaotic day.

After handing over my money, to the bald man behind the counter. I sat at one of the tables, the chair slightly creaking as I sit down. The place in itself looked ridiculously old.

Most places in this part of London, were. It was to keep some sort of authenticity, or so I had been told. London being authentic however, sounded like a joke to me. With new tower blocks and hi-tech gadgets always being built.

Hearing two chairs being pulled out of the table and two people sitting down, I expect it to be Candy. To my surprise, it's Ryan and Ollie.

They place what I've ordered infront of me, their gaze set upon me for a few moments. As they take chips into their hands, put them into their mouths chew and swallow. Until, all of their chips are gone.

Ollie decides to clear his throat, immediately diverting my attention from my food to him. "I'd just like to say, I'm really sorry for the way Jordi acted today." He whispers, offering me a small smile as he does.

I nod, at this point I couldn't really care less about the whole Jordi situation. Yes, it was tricky and, at points hard to understand. But, as I had said to Jordi himself, I wasn't a mug.

He was supposedly my friend and, he had betrayed me in the harshest way possible. "We really are, very sorry. If we could've stopped him we would." Andy says, coming over to the table. With Clover following behind.

The other three, sitting on the table behind us. "That twat," Clover begins, slightly mumbling. "You don't need him Als, you have us. We all love and care for you." She finishes. Sitting down next to me, putting her arm around my shoulders. To embrace me into an awkward hug.

Everyone nods, before going off into their own conversations again. It was like every time they did this, there would always be someone for me to talk to too. That person was Jordi, but he wasn't here. He was gone.

I sigh, slumping downwards in my seat slightly. Glancing around at everyone and how happy they were, I envied it. I just wanted to be happy.

I know, that the key to happiness is just not caring about what others think and doing your own thing. I wish, I wish that I was someone who was able to do that. As, being able to do something like that would be a godsend for someone like me.

Now, I understand. I understand completely, what Clover had told me back in the hospital. I was insecure and vulnerable. I still am, it was something I wish I could change, because then maybe I could have the confidence and the mindset to not let things people say phase me.

My thoughts are ended, when I notice my phone ring. My phone? I retrieve it from my bag and check the caller I.D.

I did not expect to see, the name pop up that did. Jake? Now that seemed like an unfamiliar name to me. I decide to decline the call, opting for the easier way out. As, going through the whole process of remembering who people was exhausting.

Especially when they tried to fill your brain with irrelevant information about memories you've shared. In all honesty, I was grateful that so many people were trying to help me remember them. But right now, it was something on the low list of my priorities.