If Only

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Jin looked up at Jungkook and smiled at him. The two had unintentionally placed some distance between them as they were talking but Jin moved closer and taking one of Jungkook's hand, placed it on his chest, right above his thundering heart.

"I want you to know that I love you. I have loved you for a long time. And I was blind not to see it. Stupid not to say it. And the absolute worst to make you feel inadequate in my eyes. Jungkook, you are the only man I will ever love. The only person in the entire world that can make me feel happy and loved and cherished. The only man who can make my heart beat this way. Your love got me through cold nights and long days. It got me through gruesome and never ending training. It got me through the times I just wanted to give up and quit. You are the light at the end of the tunnel. My saving grace. I absolutely adore you. And I just wanted to ask if you would let me love you back. Let me shower you with all the love I had locked away. Let me shower you with all the affections I have. I will strive to make you the happiest man in the world. If only you'd have me."

Jungkook felt the way Jin's heart beat. Like waves in the sea on a rough night slamming on the coral rocks, his heart pounded on his palm. His own heart was racing, like a wild horse set free. His mind has stopped processing. He was literally like an untethered bouy floating away in the sea that was Jin. The love of his life just told him he loved him. That he had felt the same way about him for even longer.

The stupid misunderstanding had been just that, stupid. He couldn't believe how much this man in front of him had such influence over his life. He had enlisted just because Jin had said he was still a child. And he had wanted to rub it in Jin's face that he wasn't by pausing his career to be a marine. Throughout the two years, he had cut communication from his friends and just wanted to become a 'man', to let the military make him a man.

Chuckling, he looked at Jin and saw the raw unfiltered love in the man's eyes. Those brown eyes that had speckles of gold were glistening with unshed tears. He felt his heart heart melt and knew that this man had complete and utter control over his life. He would do anything for Jin, no matter the consequences.

There were no words to say, no enough sentences in the world that could portray his feelings for him. And so he did what his heart wanted. He pulled Jin into an earth shattering kiss. The words he could not get out of his heart, he expressed them with the kiss. It was hot, passionate, rough yet gentle and overflowed with love. Lips and teeth clashing, each fighting for a chance to express themselves. Hands roaming around trying to feel the other's skin. They were like starved travelers who had found an oasis in each other after a very long and tiring journey.