The boy next door - h.s.

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Jealousy.

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Harry's POV

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I laid there, staring at Elle. She was so beautiful, I wish she would feel the same about me but it's not possible. She's gay and I support her, but it kills me to see her go out with someone who isn't me. The second she asked me for help I wanted to yell no and tell her she's mine and only mine but, I had to support her and let her fall in someone else's arms who could possibly fall back in love and make her happy.

Her happiness was all that mattered to me, if she was happy.

I was happy.

Just her telling me about her going on the date with Sophia made my blood boil in my veins. I did have a little bit of feelings for Sophia but I didn't wanna go out with her. Sophia's asked me out at least 2-3 times every school year since freshman year but I've always rejected her. God I've been in love with Elle since the 1st grade when I got in an argument with her with a boy who was talking shit to her. That's when I really took a notice on her appearance and personality.

It was always secretly my plan to ask her out once we graduated High school but two years before that she came out gay. It crushed my heart, but honestly there was nothing I could've done to stop it. Even if Elle and I dated she still could've came out gay. Not every relationship can stop someone from coming out at gay or bisexual. That's just not how it worked.

The heart wants what it wants.

I always call that bullshit. The heart can be wrong, it can lead you to complete heart break. Before Elle came out I'd always keep an eye on her boyfriends, and when I saw something I'd tell her immediately. At first she didn't believe me and thought I was doing it because 'I was scared to lose her' or that 'he'd take my spot.' or shit like that but when really I just didn't want her to be hurt by a piece of shit guy who cheated on her, talked shit about her behind her back, or even tried using her for her body.

I've always done my best to protect Elena, and I'll even keep a watch on this girl too. To see if she's a loyal person or not. I can't let anyone hurt Elle, not since the last boyfriend she had.

Her last boyfriend abused her, every time she'd come home bruised and sometimes a nose with dried blood. One day I had enough with it and beat the shit out of the guy, he had to go to the hospital due to how badly I had punched, and kicked him. Elle was upset but I didn't care, I was not gonna let that keep happening to her. Or again if I'm lucky. Soon they broke up once Elle found out he was cheating on her with her friend. She was heartbroken, and I was able to do nothing but comfort her and take her mind off of the memory and vision.

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I'm in my room watching a movie. I left Elena, only because she was on the phone with Sophia and that ruined our movie. So I left her so they can go talk in private, I hate that she has someone in her life not only because I'm in fucking love with her but because she is always gonna wanna spend time with her now.

Why do I have to be in love with my best friend?

That is absolutely one of the worst things to happen in life, falling in love with a best friend. Hell, even trying to date people to get over them but it still doesn't work. Even tried to fuck girls to get over her but nothing.

After a few months of trying to get over her I eventually faced the fact that it wasn't probably gonna happen anytime soon and if the world wanted to be cruel and do this to me, so be it. Maybe one day a girl will come waltzing right into my house, in my room and wanna hang out and possibly be more than friends-