Falling For My Bandmate (Book 1)

The Announcement, and a few tears shed

Our manager called us and said he had some exiting news for us. He is on his way over right now and I am growing more impatient. We are all waiting in the livingroom until suddenly someone knocks at the front door. I get up and rush to the door. I open it and there is our manager Josh. He came in and he follows me to the livingroom. "So are you guys ready for the news?" Josh asked "yes! Tell us!" I say "ok, ok" Josh begins "the dates for your first world tour are going up Friday!" Josh said. Everyone jumped up excitedly and I hug Colby and he hugged me back. I turn around and hug Josh then pull away. "I'm so excited!! I can't wait to be on a tour bus, and go to other countries!!" I say with a smile so big my face started to hurt. "I can't wait to tell the fans!" Colby says. "They are going to be so exited" I say
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Me and the guys are getting ready to start a live, and we are going to be telling the fans. We all sit on the couch, I'm sitting next between Colby and Jake, and Corey is by Sam. Corey puts his phone on a stand and pressed begin on the live. Within seconds over 75k people joined. "Welcome to our live!!" I say smiling. "We have a special announcement for you guys! We will be saying later in the live" Colby explained. I lean my head on Colby's shoulder for one second and the comments came in quiker  than you could say first vine yo. I pick my head up and I just sit awkwardly. The guys where talking about random things and I felt...out of place on a shelf of snow globes and one piggy bank. I got up "hey I'll be right back" I say. I walk to the bathroom and close the door. I slide down it and lean my head back. I don't know why I got up like that. Maybe if I left the band everything would be fine, no one would have a problem? Suddenly someone knocked in the door. I stand up and open the door slightly. I see Colby standing there and I looked down at my feet "I'll let you use it" I say walking out "are you ok Bailey?" Colby asked "yeah, I'm good" I say walking past him and sitting back with the guys.

Colby's pov.

She isn't ok, I know it. She never acted like this till we formed
the band. Maybe she is stressed? I'll talk to her later. We have to finish
the live anyway.

Bailey's pov.

We end the live and I go into the kitchen and I grab the spare white claw I hid for myself. I hope up on the counter and then open it. I met my legs dangle as I let myself be consumed by much thoughts. Until I heard my name being called. I look over and see Colby, and he looked worried. " Hey Colbs, is there a problem?" I ask with a frown. Colby took a breath and shook his head. "Bailey, I know you aren't ok, so tell me what is wrong. Please, you seem...sad" Colby said. I was silent a moment and I sighed. "It's just...hard" I begin "what is?" Colby asks "all of it. I remember what it was like to hug you and I wouldn't be judged for it. I could talk to you, comment on something. Since we started the band. I feel like I can't do that anymore. To many eyes watch, to many people judge. And I feel like shit because I know I shouldn't think all this. Sometimes I wish we could go back to before we where in the spotlight" I explain. I look at much feet as they dangle from the counter. I begin to cry as Colby started talking, but look away. "Bailey. I'm sorry that you feel like that. I don't want you to feel like you can't be yourself. It breaks my heart to know that" Colby said gently holding my hand in his. I look back at Colby as a tear ran down my cheek and a small sob cams out. "I'm sorry" I say in a shake voice "I know, that I shouldn't cry" I say wiping my cheek. "But I don't want to feel like I can't love my best friend" I say now crying into my hands. Colby doesn't say anything, he just pulls me into a hug. "Don't be sorry, it's ok" Colby said I nod.
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We are all getting ready for bed and I decided it might be a good time to tell Colby how I actually feel about him. So I go knock on Colby's door and is opened and he looked at me, "you ok?" Colby asked, ok..say it. "You know what, never mind" I say walking back to my room. "Hey Bailey?" Colby said "yeah?" I ask "just tell me, it's best to say something" Colby said. Ok, uuuhh, make you a lie, ik to scared to tell him now. "Ok. Thank you for talking with me earlier. It helped a lot" I say "you're welcome, I'm always here for you" Colby said flashing a smile. I smile back "thanks" I say. I turned around and walk into my room. I throw on shorts and a AC/DC shirt. I put my hair into a bun and get info bed. I check notifications, then plug in my phone. I lay down and turned off my lamp on the table next to my bed. I feel myself dozing off, my eyes getting heavier by the second. Until, my eyes are closed and I am asleep.