𝑲𝑷𝑶𝑷 𝑰𝑴𝑨𝑮𝑰𝑵𝑬𝑺 (𝑴𝑼𝑳𝑻𝑭𝑨𝑵𝑫𝑶𝑴)

ᴄʜᴀɴ sᴋᴢ - ɪɴsᴏᴍɴɪᴀ

sleeping is not in my vocabulary. even if i try, my body won't shut itself down. i could lay in bed for hours, and sleep just won't come. so i ended up just giving up. i succumbed to the world of sleep deprivation. it didn't worry me at all, but it certainly worried my boyfriend, chan. he always watched as i stayed up at ungodly hours of the night, working on assignments or studying for tests. as the days went on, they slowly turned into months, of barely any sleep. i was running on 6 cups of coffee per day, and i looked terrible to say the least. my skin was slightly more pale, and i was very much thinner. the eyebags underneath my eyes were visible, and the beautiful smile i once had, was long gone. this only worried chan even more, but today, was his last straw.

i was seated at my small desk in the corner of our shared bedroom, studying for an upcoming biology test. i was surrounded by empty coffee cups and scrunched up pieces of paper, my eyelids heavy. i heard the door shut gently, meaning chan was home. i didn't even bother to turn around. "baby, are you studying again? it's 11pm!" there was a sense of worry in his voice, which wasn't surprising. i just nodded, my eyes locked on the textbook in front of me. "okay that's it, put your shit down and come sit here" i turned around at the harshness in his voice. i have never heard him speak like that before. i stood up and walked over to the bed where he had sat down, a small bag next to him. i sat down next to him, fiddling with my fingers nervously. "princess....i am so worried about you" his voice was soft now, tears pricking my eyes. i felt his large hands envelope my small ones, the familiar soft and warm feeling making me feel relaxed.

"you haven't slept properly in so long, you're always studying, i haven't seen you eat or drink anything that isn't coffee, and you've lost all of your colour.....i miss your smile, i miss cuddling with you at night, i just miss how happy and lively you were" he gently caressed my hands, and that's when i lost it. i let the tears fall, and started sobbing uncontrollably. chan pulled me into his embrace, gently caressing my back. i stained his shirt with my tears, pouring out all of the emotions i had bottled up inside of me. after a few minutes, i finally calmed down. "i-i'm so sorry chan, i never even realised that as much it was hurting me, it was hurting you" i looked down towards our intertwined hands, a tear sliding down my cheek. "i know what it feels like, i went through the same thing you did, but i'm not going to stop until you're okay" chan placed his hand underneath my chin, tilting it up so we were making eye contact. his eyes were filled with so much love and care, he made me feel so safe. i nodded, a gentle sigh leaving my lips.

chan pressed a gentle kiss to my lips, his plush lips shooting a sensation through me like no other. he pulled away after a few seconds, resting his forehead against mine. "i love you so much, y/n, you deserve the entire world and i would move heaven and earth to give it to you" his voice was laced with love, his warm breath on my lips. that was enough for my lips to find his again in a short peck. he smiled, before reaching behind him. he placed the small bag in front of him, and pulled out a few things. a water bottle, a face mask, and a set of pills. "i want you to drink all of this, eat the chinese takeout i brought home, have a bubble bath with this face mask, and then take these sleeping pills" he placed all of them on my lap, my jaw dropping. i tried hard not to cry again. he was so considerate, he is certainly the best thing that has ever happened to me. i threw my arms around his neck, burying my face in his chest. "thank you so much chan, you truly are the best boyfriend" i mumbled, causing him to chuckle. "just go enjoy yourself baby, i'll clean up in here, and run you a bubble bath" he pressed a kiss to my forehead, a smile lifting my lips.

after having some real food, and guzzling down the bottle of water, i instantly felt refreshed and more energetic. as i walked down the hall, a lovely vanilla scent filled my nose. i walked towards it, and ended up in the bathroom. my jaw dropped. the bath was filled with bubbles, and scented candles decorating the room. there was a laptop set up with my favourite tv show on it, and a small bowl of strawberries next to it. chan walked in behind me, with a warm fluffy towel in his hand. "hey princess, i hope you like it" he smiled widely, his gorgeous dimples on display. "c-chan i.....i love it" i smiled softly, watching his eyes light up. "you've already got some of your colour back" he smiled, caressing my cheek with one hand. "now, you enjoy all of this, and i'll go clean up your desk" he kissed my cheek, placing the towel in my hands. i nodded, watching him walk out of the bathroom.

i quickly stripped down, placing the face mask on my skin, and stepping into the warm water. i played the tv show, and gently settled down, succumbing to the lovely feeling. i could feel the face mask replenish my skin as i ate the fresh strawberries, and washed my body with a vanilla body wash. once i finished, i realised chan had left his favourite hoodie for me to wear. he knows it's my favourite as well. i smiled widely, and quickly dried off, pulling the large hoodie over my head. it fell down to my knees, and i was immediately engulfed in his scent. i quickly pulled on some sweatpants, and then walked into the bedroom, where chan was setting up the bed. i looked around, my eyes landing on my desk. the empty coffee cups and scrunched up balls of paper were nowhere to be seen, my pens and pencils were placed neatly in a cup, and my papers were stacked neatly with my textbooks. chan truly was the best boyfriend ever.

"did you enjoy your bath? you look much happier and healthier now" chan strolled over to where i was standing, sneaking his arms around my waist. "it was amazing, thank you so much chan, i love you" i cupped his cheeks, placing a gentle peck on his lips. "now, take 2 of these pills, and then we can cuddle" chan released me, grabbing ahold of a glass of water and 2 of the pills he had bought. i nodded, taking the two into my hands. i took both of the pills, washing them down with the water. chan flicked the main lights off and pulled me over to the bed. we both got underneath the covers, chan immediately pulling me against his chest. i giggled as he kissed the top of my head, a smile painted on his plush lips. i laid down, so my head was resting on his chest. i could hear his gentle heartbeat as he played with my hair, my eyes slowly fluttering shut. the sleeping pills were starting to have an affect, and soon enough, i was out cold, in the arms of my amazing and caring boyfriend, bang chan.

(i got so sad writing this, i want a bf now sjsjjssj. lmao jkjk, as a chan stan my expectation for men are out of  this world lmao)