Passionné |HEROPHINE ONESHOTS|

The Sinisters 2

Jo
"This is all your fault!" Kath yelled at me, I was just age 10. "No it's not!" I cried. It's been a week since my mom died in that car accident. My mom always favored Kath but that doesn't mean she didn't love me, or at least I think she did. I didn't care though because I loved her, ever though I will always choose my daddy instead of her.

"Yes it is, it's your fucking fault, why didn't you just stay home instead of going to that stupid ass birthday party filled with idiots?!" She screamed.

"I fucking hate you! I wish it would've been you instead of her!" At that moment I felt my heart shatter. What if I didn't go to Katie's birthday party? Would she still be alive ? I should've just stayed there like I should've. Instead I cried to go back home because Nathan, Katie's brother was being mean to me.

Why couldn't I be a big strong girl like daddy says I'm supposed to be? I should've stood up for myself. If I did she would've been right here,right this moment, at this time. But she's not, because of me. It is my fault after all, because I didn't know how to stand up for myself.

I ran up to my dad's room and cried into his arms. "What's wrong sweetie" he asked. "I-I'm Sorry, I'm so,so sorry daddy" I sobbed. "What's are you sorry about honey?" He asked brushing my blond hair off my face. "I killed her, I killed mommy. I should've stayed ! I should've stayed!" I sob. "Why couldn't I just stay?! I-if I did she would've been alive but because of me she isn't! Daddy I'm so sorry!" I continued.

"Josephine,sweetie, it's not your fault, you didn't kill mommy,shhhh" he says trying trying to calm me down from my breakdown. After a few minutes of silence I finally spoke up. "Why couldn't I be strong like how you taught me to, why am I so scared to stand up for myself all the time" I whisper in the verge of crying again.

"You're perfect just the way you are, you are strong in your own way, you are beautiful, you are very smart and you are very caring. Don't forget that. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise" my dad says. "Okay" I whispered snuggling closer to him. "Kath hates me" I say after a few minutes of complete silence. My dad sits up, very shocked and the words that came out of my mouth". "Jojo that's just ridiculous, Kath loves you very much" my dad said trying to hold back his laughter.

"It's not funny, stop laughing" I said annoyed at his outburst. "I'm sorry sweetheart that's just ridiculous" he says after he finally stopped laughing. "But it's true, she does hate me. She said that she wished it was me instead of mom". My eyes started to well up with tears. My dad got up from his bed and went to the door. "Kathrine Charlotte Langford, get your ass in here now!" My dad yelled downstairs. My dad rarely curses, only when he's really upset.

I received a death glare when I saw Kath enter the room. If looks could kill I'd be dead by now,6 feet under for sure. "Why would you say that to a ten years old!?" He yelled. "Bec-" Kath goes to speak but she was cut off. "Listen I know that you're grieving, we all are for fucks sake Kath. Don't you see that?" My dad's voice cracks.

"I'm sorry, I-I just miss her so much. I'm angry that she's gone, I'm sad. I have all these emotions and I don't know what to do with them. Jo's have always had you, and I had mom, and now that she's gone, I feel lost" she sobbed then turned to me. "Jo, I'm sorry, I really am. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings or make you sad, I know it's not your fault. I'm sorry" she continued.

Kath has always wanted to be an actor, consider this her audition for a very sad scene or something like that. I know that her apology isn't real, she just said it so dad won't be upset with her. "I forgive you" I croaked. Not. Of course I don't forgive her, only if she means it.

Time skip....
We've been living in London for about 2 years now. My dad is really sick, I don't know what it is, and I'm sure that Kath doesn't either. My 19th birthday is in 2 weeks.