After ng encounter namin ni Andrew sa cafe, hindi ko na siya kinausap ulit. I don't know, napaka-unfeeling ko ba at hindi ko napaparamdam lahat ng feeling ko para sa kanya? O sadya lang talaga siyang manhid at walang nararamdaman?
I don't know what to do. Masyado ko ng na-entertain ang feelings ko at nakalimutan ko ng isipin ang sarili ko. Hell, I'm not like this before. What to do? What to do? I sighed. Breathing heavily. Lately, wala na kong inisip kung paano ko pa siya ulit pakikitunguhan. Its so hard. You knew that you're not getting anything from the one you'
Siguro nga, mas mabuti pang iwasan ko na lang siya. In that way, hindi na madadagdagan pa ang mga memories, na I'm sure, pipilitin kong makalimutan. I'm lost with my thoughts na nakalimutan kong mapansin ang twin sister ko na papalapit sa inuupuan kong bench.
"Hey, Anix!" I yelled. Lumingon siya. Nang makaupo na siya,
"Andi, iniiwasan mo ba si Drew? Napansin na ng buong barkada eh."
"As long as I could remember, hindi ko naging kaibigan si Andrew."
"Don't evade my questions, I know you too well." Sagot ni Anix.
"Its just that..hindi naman kami nagkagalit. Its just that..." At hayun, kinuwento ko na sa twin ko ang lahat. After naming mag usap, may naisip daw siyang plan para magka ayos ulit kami.
Graduation Day of Andrea
Finally, I managed to graduate school without so much hassle. My twin prepared a party for me that obviously, I do not want. Its probably the least thing I want to do today. Party. Ugh, that sucks. All I want is just a piece of my time to contemplate, but there she is, my twin, Anixia, who really insisted to throw a party.
She headed towards my direction and asked,
"Are you ready? Don't think too much, I already managed. Andun na rin lahat kasama nila Maddi."
I sighed. I think I don't have any choice but to go in that "surprise party". I'm so exhausted, and I'm really not in the mood to go. Adding to the injury, Andrew would surely go, too. And that scares me most above anything.
I rest my body as I got seated at the back of the car. I shove my earphones on and tried not to think of what my future has to offer.
At the beach resort
I smelled the night blooming air that gives chills on my skin. Suddenly, someone shouted to my ear.
"Andi! Wake up! Its your day. Comeon. Anyway, congratulations!" Ugh, Maddi. For God's sake, she always have a very enthusiastic energy all through out her veins. The nerve. Urghh.
I saw everyone. My friends, some old friends, some cousins. I didn't have any idea that Anix can sue them to attend to this party. I'm thankful, though.
Then, my eyes found the familiar built, that man. He's here. Our eyes locked. I abruptly managed to turn around. I'm thankful that Maddi got me that fast and introduced me to the crowd.
"Hey, napapansin ko, your avoiding Andrew? What's up?" Maddi asked while we we're eating.
"Ah, siguro wala lang chance. Forget it, there's nothing new about it. Hindi ka pa ba nasanay?" I sounded bitter, damn. There's no way I would be like this.
"Oh, okay. I just observed. No hard feelings okay?" Maddi said.
"Sorry."
"Its alright, Andrea Sofia." Haha, now she's making a fun of my name. Nice. Holy crap.
"Excuse me, Mads, ikaw muna bahala sa crowd."
"Sure, sure." She said. Then, I made my way out of the crowd. I want to go away. I walked fastly, trying to hide to the person I badly wanted.
BINABASA MO ANG
To Love and To Forget
Storie d'amoreAndrea Sofia Lim is cold, unpredictable, and indifferent when it comes to people. She left her past behind and moved forward without any interference on love. She's broken, beyond repair, and do not want to fall in love again. Yes, she believes in l...