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How Long Until He Forgets Me

There was a time when I was completely broken due to the fact that I couldn't move on from a past love, and that time hasn't changed, I am still trying to move past him. But at the time that I was most vulnerable, broken, and insecure I met a guy who could make me smile again. He was not the same as my past love, but he made me feel like I forgot him for a while. This guy was tall, handsome, passionate, and funny. My friends liked him, I liked him, and I thought that finally...finally I have found someone who can maybe show me why things with my past love and me didn't work. But I was so far from that. This guy was a cheater. He cheated on his girlfriend with me. And I had no idea of it. I was devastated and humiliated and most of all, more broken then I could ever imagine a person could be. My egotistical side was incredibly wounded, however, my feelings went back to its insecure self about why I was not enough for any of them. The girl that was with him before I was, was hurt most of all. I had spoken to her for hours, both of us trying to find answers. She was absolutely in love with him, and I completely understood because I am all too familiar to that kind of passion for someone. I wished her luck and told her all the advice that I knew to be real. I hoped she wouldn't make a mistake and go running back to him, but to be honest if it were me and my past love had cheated I'd go running back, so I understood why when she went back. She called me and told me that things with him were going to be okay from now on because he had given her a long over due speech about how he would never intentionally hurt her and he's sorry and only wants her, and Im guessing some other things that made her forget the reason she was ever mad in the first place. I was jealous. He never, not once, texted me to tell me he's sorry. He did however ask if I was still talking to him in which case I told him to fuck off. But even after all of this, I am guessing they didn't survive. Just less than two months later she had deleted his photos and he's seen with another girl. I still don't know what happened, I didn't want to remind her of him so I never asked. It amazes me how he fought for her and won her back and then that happens. Im 100 percent sure that he left her, even after he fought for her. I guess that's the exact reason I don't trust guys who tell me that they like me, care for me, want me, need me, and that they wont hurt me. Because intentional or not they end up hurting girls, they end up leaving. Having a boyfriend is fine, but never give your heart to him because you will get hurt and he will not care as much as you hope he does, and no one knows if you'll get your heart back. If he really wants the girl, even falls in love, fights for her until the very end, for how long exactly is that going to last? How long until he forgets that so called undying love and leaves? How long until that caring goes away? And how, may I ask, are they able to hold the heart of a girl and never appreciate the fact that they are the ones pulling its strings?
H.K