Later that evening Nikki is sat with her dinner on her lap watching tv. Because of the day's events, Jack ordered them a Chinese, although all Nikki has done is push the food around her plate and have only eaten a little bit of rice. "Nikki please you need to eat" Jack sighs. "I'm really not hungry" Nikki responds. "Please Nik, just finish that little bit there" he sighs again as he points to the area with his fork.
Soon she puts her plate down on the coffee table, she gets up and walks off into the kitchen before returning with a glass of water and a packet of paracetamol. Jack looks at her sympathetically he had seen her do this too many times, "you know the hospital did offer stronger pain relief to help with the pain as well as the medication to help things along" he speaks with a bit of food left in his mouth.
"I know, I'll be fine" she replies quietly.
Jack puts his fork down on the plate and looks at her. "I love you, you know that right" he smiles as he cups her cheek with his hand, he gently strokes his thumb across her cheek and watches her.
She smiles slightly at Jack as a tear slips down her face freely, Jack then moves his hand from her face and gets up taking both the plates through to the kitchen, he puts some of the food back in the containers as it can be reheated again, He scrapes the rest off into the bin and places the plates in the dishwasher. As he turns around he is met by the scan photo which is on the refrigerator door, his heart sinks as he looks at it for a minute.
They seemed to have not much luck with conceiving, ever since they had started to try two years ago it was disappointment after disappointment, and miscarriage after miscarriage. After their second miscarriage, they decided to put the conceiving a child on hold and focus on themselves and get married before attempting to start a family again, although this is now Nikki's fourth miscarriage both Jack and Nikki are starting to wonder if there is something wrong with Nikki or Jack which is leading to multiple miscarriages, either way, Nikki is heartbroken once again her hopes and dreams of holding her very on baby boy or girl in her arms are shattered. Not to mention what broke her heart more is that this is their second round of IVF.
Jack walks back through to the lounge with two cups of tea for them and places them down on the coffee table, He sits beside Nikki and instantly she moves and rests her head on his lap. Jack sighs as he begins to stroke her hair gently, "Are you okay?" He quizzes.
"That's a stupid question Jack... of course I'm not" She mumbles as she wipes her cheek again with her jumper sleeve.
"I'm sorry, do you want me to run you a bath?" He questions.
"No, I just want you to hold me, tell me everything will be okay," She responds.
He smiles and gently strokes her head again as she closes her eyes, "I promise you Nik, we will have a baby together, maybe what is happening is just mother natures way of saying we're not ready?" He speaks.
Nikki rolls onto her back with her head still on his lap, she looks up at him and sighs. "But I'm not getting any younger, I'm thirty-eight for goodness sake, maybe we should just agree I'm not going to be able to have any child," Nikki sighs as the tears form in her eyes again.
"Don't say that Nik, I mean why don't we look into surrogacy," Jack speaks.
"No, It won't be mine," She sighs.
Jack looks at her his heart heavy she had truly given up on having a child as of today, He leans forwards and kisses her on the lips, "Trust me, Nikki, they will be, just with help, Let us see someone about it and meet some possible surrogates, I really want a baby with you Nikki and I will go to the ends of the earth to make this happen for us" He smiles as she gently rests his hand on her stomach his heart sinking again realizing what he was doing.
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Wildest Dreams
FanfictionAU - Jack and Nikki have been married for just over a year, they have continued their normal working life at the Lyell centre although both Jack and Nikki want to start a family, will their dreams come true?
