Lavinia Valentina is 15.She has suffered a lot of pain in her years of childhood:From her brother going missing to one of her best friends dying ,which caused her depression. Her friends try pull her out of her dark hole but once her parents die,she...
I lay awake in bed,gazing at the ceiling above,the daylight streaming through the blinds,which had already given me a headache.I was once again reminded that I was still here.My phone was chiming with notifications.Suddenly, a thought struck my head as I jumped up,remembering that today is the day that my parents will land today from their buisness trip to California.I am SO excited!!Its been a few months since my parents went to California for work, and Ive been missing them ever since.Sighing,I quickly got up and fixed up my double bed.
I then got my clothes out ,which consisted of:a white lace floral top with some denim jeans.For my accessories I picked out:some simple white trainers and my white bag with golden accents.I placed my stuff on my bed,grabbing my towel on my way, and entered the bathroom.
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I went in,and started removing my necklase,which was a gifted to me by my brother.Just the memory of him watered my eyes slightly.Even after 3 years,I still cant forget......
I then began peeling off my clothes .Whilst doing so,I began dazing at myself in the mirror,hazel eyes stared back at me.The once bright eyes looked dull,lifeless even emotionless before me.I began picking out every flaw on myself.Just my normal routine.I then looked towards the scars aligning on my wrist,lightly tracing the ragged lines ,a reminder of failing the only job I had.It glimmered as the beams of the light bulb flashed on it.
My parents never knew of my self harm,anxiety and depression .Diana,my best friend knows only of my anxiety.She has chestnut hair and fair skin.Her eyes were a slightly light grey.She could be mistaken as a model coming out from a fashion magazine.I still dont get why she wanted to be friends with me and i think i never will.
Diana was the one who tried helping me accept that Aaron's gone,and she tried helping me think that whilst also losing her best friend .She did her best to tell me that it wasn't my fault,of course she was just trying to make me feel better.I know it was my fault,if i had done something to save Aaron,then he'd still be here,if i was taken instead of him....
Diana found out of my anxiety when she was walking in on me having a panic attack.I still remember crystal clearly from 3 years ago:
(flashback:)
I was in my room,staring at myself in my full length mirror ,nothing out of the ordinary.My hands were enclose on my necklase.Its been a year-a year without my brother.Today was meant to be his birthday.....
'Its your fault.You didn't save him,'a voice flatly told me.
no,I didnt know!He told me to hide!It wasnt me!It wasnt my fault!
