My mind unravels
Before my eyes
Shaking me
Breaking me
awake
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
For FUCK's sake.
This mind-cunt of mine
Deplores
Gleefully
Ignores
Futile
Pitiful cries
From wherever
The hell
My inside
They reside.
Go back!
Go back!
Unconsciousness
Oblivion
The relief
From the grief
That sleep
Even Briefly
Sweetly
Provides.
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Pissing
Missing
More than I hit
Not caring
Not giving a fuck
About that
Or that shit
That was just on the carpet
But now stuck under my foot
This living-dying of mine
just takes
One minute
One hour
One day
at a time
One of these days
I'll get over the line.
I just need a fucking drink
Then some more
Forced
Downed
and kept there
Of course.
This mind-cunt of mine
To shut the fuck up
Takes a great deal of work
Takes a great deal of hurt.
But in this particular field
of drinking it
delirious
I have a lifeful of
Gainful
Painful
Shameful
Experience.
