❝cherish || haikyuu oneshots❞

🌸 s. daichi || window

This chapter does include severe bullying and suicidal thoughts!! Read at your own risk!!!

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Falling down.

Down.

Down.

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You woke up in a cold sweat. You glanced at your ebony clock beside you and wiped the sweat off your forehead with a shaky hand.

'2:34 AM' the clock read.

You took a deep breath as you looked at the warm body beside you. Daichi was sleeping peacefully. You didn't want to wake him up with your childish fear.

You got up and got a glass of water to hopefully dull your anxiety. You stared out the window, looking at the dark colors cars zoom by your window. You eyes eventually trailed to your open window.

The view was so mesmerizing. Like you could doze on clouds and gaze the the starry sky.

The sensation of falling was a blissful horror. You were curious.

You stood the the window sill. Your bare feet balanced as loud cars passed by, not caring if you dared to dive on to the busy road.

Your hands gripped the sides of the window. Your body was now on the other side of the wall.

The wind gushed around your loose hair. It created an odd sounds as it went past your ears. Your vision seemed more saturated now, and you felt like everything was yours and you had the world in your clutch.

Your toes inches forward. You let one hand go.

"Y/N!!!"

The loud shout from behind you started you, almost making you fall. You rebalanced yourself.

You didn't want to face him. You also or jumped. He would be angry. He would be upset. Maybe you could skip that and leap now.

A cold hand clutched your ankle. "Please come down, Y/N." his voice cracked mid way through his sentence, as if her were crying.

You'd never seen or heard Daichi cry, so you thought it was the wind messing with your ears.

You slowly climbed down, not looking at his face. You didn't want to see his disappointment on his face.

Instead you got two hard grips on your shoulders with a violent shake.

"What the hell?!"

You were speechless. You didn't realize he would be this angry.

You didn't reply.

"Why would you even think of such a terrible thing, Y/N?"

You finally worked up the nerve to look him in the eyes. You didn't find the pretty, clear eyes you were used to. Instead you found hazy watery ones. His face was wet with fresh tears.

"I..." you don't have any words. Then it hit you,

You almost died.

Immediately you began to hyperventilate. Tears welled up in your eyes.

Daichi's face softened as he realized you were upset. "Hey..."

He let go of your shoulders and gently grabbed your hand and led you to the bed.

Your chest was hurting at how hard you where wheezing.

Died.

Die.

Death.

Fell.

Fall.

Falling.

Daichi.

Daichi.

Daichi!

You flung yourself at him, clawing his back to make sure he was real. If you had jumped you would have lost him, and everything else.

You clawed and cried and sobbed into his neck. All he did was embrace the light pain and gently hold your hips.

"I'm so sorry, Daichi. I don't know what I was thinking." You said, slowing down your breathing and stopped clawing him.

"I don't know what I was thinking."

You let your body loose and wrapped yours legs around his waist and held on to his neck.

"I didn't want to die." He started to rock you. "I wanted to feel the cold air rush past my body as goosebumps arose everywhere on my skin. I wanted to feel the wind through my fingers like yarn in a loom. I wanted to have the sensation that I weighed nothing, and nothing mattered until I hit the ground. Where everything is dark and your vision reduces to a slo-mo. Where," you paused, recollecting the last bits do your sanity, "where you mean nothing in the universe. Where your just 'there'."

After a few silent moments, Daichi said, "I can't lose you."

You nodded lightly. Your wet lashes tickled his neck.

"Don't do anything like that again. Or else."

"Or else what?" you said curiously.

"Or else I'll jump too."

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THREE MONTH TIME SKIP

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It was three months, your therapy was over and your mind was rid of rotten thoughts such as leaping off a tall building.

You were in a small dress. Daichi was wearing nice but causal clothing. He was taking you out as a celebration.

You went and got some mochi together. You sat down inside and a few minutes later the waitress brought you two sticks of mochi.

"To my special lady." he said, grabbing his stick to 'cheer' it with yours.

"Cheers."

You two both smiled and took a bite at the same time.

"I love you." he said, breaking the delicate silence.

"I love you too. I'm" your voice cracked, remember that day three months ago. "I'm so sorry, Daichi."

He saw you tear up and grabbed your hand.

"Hey, hey. It's alright. That's in the past now. Leave it, but don't ever forget it. Your all better now. Your fixed."

"Was I broken before?"

"Oh god no. You're perfect, inside and out. We just had a little gear out of place up there." he said, gently tapping your temple.

You nodded. "Yeah."

'Leave it, but don't ever forget it.'

You leaned over the table for a kiss. You lips met his soft ones gently as he continued to hold your small hand. He kissed back. The passionate kiss made your heart flutter and the butterflies in your stomach to come alive.

You parted the kiss and sat down. You gazed into his eyes. "If you jump, Y/N." started,

"I'll jump too."