𝐵𝑇𝑆 𝑀𝐴𝐾𝑁𝐴𝐸 𝐿𝐼𝑁𝐸 𝐼𝑀𝐴𝐽𝐼𝑁𝑆 (𝑆𝐾𝑍 𝐼𝑀𝐴𝐺𝐼𝑁𝐸𝑆)

Jimin

Jimin and I've been dating about a year now. I really love and adore him,truly. But I really don't know if he does. Because whenever he says " I love you", it never seems real like he's being forced to say it. It's like he's not committed. He was once dating Seulgi, his very first love. He dated her for about 5 years but things turned out to be different for the lady as she fell out of love. Then he met me and he confessed. Tho he is very sweet and caring, but sometimes you need to confront somethings you never care to confront.
Today again Jimin decided to darkly reply to my "I love you". This time I was completely done like I was tired of gaining the same dull and lack of affection responses. I walked to Jimin confidently taking my steps. I opened the door after knocking on it impatiently wanting to ask him but calmed myself down. "Jimin we need to talk". He looked at me with a confused face. He tucked my hair behind my ear and hummed. "Jimin do you not love me? Like do you feel uncomfortable with me? Maybe feel forced with me?".He looked away in annoyance slowly standing up walking to the table to get his phone. "You're thinking ridiculous things Y/n, it's nothing like that...". He sighed and was about to walk away when I held his wrist in anger. "Jimin fucking open up to me, will you? I'm tired of thinking that you're not happy in this relationship or you're being forced. What's the problem?". I put pressure on my question as he rolled his eyes and glared at me. "Will you let go off my wrist,I'm just tired ok? What's your problem?".Fuck he didn't. "So you've been tired for a year?! Jimin you yourself are my problem! What's the reason we are in this relationship uh? Answer me...". My shouting was cut off by his bold reply. "I don't know too ok?! I still love my ex.". I stood there with open mouth not expecting him to be this bold and over confident. "This is what you wanted to hear right?". I ran in sensitivity and looked the other room entering it.I sat on the bed with my knees close to my face hugging them as I sob thinking of all the times I loved him and cared for him. Of all the times he used to be caring and sweet. Am I a rebound? This question irritated me. Crying drained all my energy and I fell into a deep slumber.
In the morning I walked out of my room, trying to ignore Jimin. Just as I was about to step downstairs, a hand tightly yet softly held my wrist and brought me to an embrace. I knew it was Jimin. I didn't give into the hug but he still held me tightly wrapping his arms around my waist softly caressing my hair with his other hand as he whispered. "Y/n I'm sorry I hurt you, I'm so sorry. I know I shouldn't have said that baby I know I'm stupid, but baby please don't-don't leave me. Punch me, hit me, slap me, do whatever you want but don't leave me please don't stop loving me, I need you". I listened to his stupidity and tried to get out of his grip. But he held me even tighter staring deeply into my soul lovingly. It was something I never saw in him. This feeling was somehow new and differently nice. His eyes were filled with sorrow, guilt, sadness, hurt, but love and adoration. The way he held me,the way he looked at me while sobbing, the way he said those things, the way he's giving me that new feeling... I felt like I needed to give him a chance. "Baby already so many people left me... will you leave too?". He spoke with sadness. I hugged him this time and told him that I'd give him another chance only for him to swirl me around before putting me on ground and actually saying the only thing I wanted to hear with real affection. "I love you,Y/n". And with that he pecked my forehead before heading to the kitchen for breakfast