Heartbreak Boy~ Moonbae

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It's been a couple of weeks since that day, meantime, my friends and I do what we normally do. I practice every night and hang out with the 'music freaks' every Saturday.

It's May 20 and there's barely two weeks left until the show. Jacob has calmed down with the calls knowing how stressed I am. I know one-day that Jacob is gonna forget about Sangyeon, it just hasn't happened yet. Sometimes he calls and says he's gonna ask him out again, but he gets scared every time. 'i gotta get it through his beautiful head' is what constantly runs through my head when he says shit like that.

I want him to be mine.

But he's not.

My phone rang and I answered right away again, "Hey,"

"Oh, hi, umm, I know you're probably practicing but I was wondering if you wanted to go on a walk," Jacobs timid voice rang through my ears, causing a smile to break out on my face.

"I would love that, meet you in front of erics house in two,"

"Got it" the line ends and I shoot out of my chair, tripping over everything trying to get ready faster. I slip a black tee on and some black jeans, and my black timberlands. Gotta fit the night, right?

When I get outside I see Jacob in a pastel blue hoodie, black jeans, and black Vans. He looked stunning. I walked up to him and we greeted each other before starting towards the convenience store. Most of the walk was silent until he hugs my arm and rests his head on my shoulder, my heart was beating so fast, thank god he was on the other side of me.

"Kevin?" he calls.

"mhm"

"I think I might like someone new," all of our conversations were in English, but I was still having trouble understanding. My heart hurt so much, I was ready to rip him off of me and run back home to cry in Stella's arms.

"W-who" my voice cracked, I hope he didn't hear that.

"You can't know yet, but I still like Sangyeon but there's someone new, someone... I never thought I would." I roll my eyes, of course, Sangyeon was still apart of it, "and I want to tell them, I'm just scared they're gonna reject me..."

"Tell them how you feel, you never know until you try, right?" I think, 'practice what you preach Kevin'

"I think I will after the talent show, they're really stressed because of it lately,"

"Well that's on the first so you better start preparing," I bitterly replied, I was gonna confess after the show, when everyone was going home I was going to take him to the apple tree behind the school and tell him. Guess that's out the window.

He laughed a bit, "I will"

We walked a bit more, he got me ice cream that we eat on the way back. Once I was home I barged into my sister's room and fell into her open arms. Crying myself to sleep as we watched 'The Notebook' and 'Where the Heart Is', good old Walmart baby.

When I woke up there was no Stella however the shower was running, so I went back to my room so I could get my clothes for today ready and waited for her to get out of the bathroom. After an hour, Eric and I were stuffed in the back of Stella's car, Juyeon couldn't pick him up today as his car needed repairs after it broke down the other day.

We jammed out to some good Beyonce and some others, but mainly Beyonce. School was normal: practicing in homeroom, math, art, gym, Korean, lunch, drama, and music again. Jacob was back to normal, but he wasn't at the same time, he was more clingy but I wasn't complaining one bit.

I'm in music at the moment, we had ten minutes till we could leave, we were being noisy as normal, singing, dancing, talking (yelling), and playing instruments.

I was singing the bridge trying to fix somethings when Mrs. Kim interrupted everyone, "After class today, I want to take everyone to the musical happening at the university tonight, I'm going to pass out permission slips and if you can get it signed meet me at the athletic entrance by 7. We'll go eat for a bit, the show starts at 9" she handed out the papers one by one, "I hope to see you there, you can leave now, ill let you out early today."

She always did something like this before the talent show, usually, it was closer to the actual event but this might've been the only time that she could fit in.

I went home and got the paper signed, my parents didn't care as long as I was respectful and did my chores. However, when I was getting ready I got another call.

"Jacob he-" he cut me off.

"I HATE HIM, he.. he kissed her right in front of me. h-he saw me and did it, I wanna forget him. BUT I CANT..." his voice broke, "help me..."

For an hour I tried to calm him down, but I needed to leave too. Thankfully he fell asleep and I was quick to hang up and rush out the door with my permission slip in hand.

Any opinions, questions, or comments. Love you, miss you, take care. Bye.

Rita