Hi!
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Did you ever feel disgusted about yourself?
Did you ever see yourself dirty?
If you have keep reading
Hmmm where I should start well the thing is I'm not really good memorizing people's name
I don't know why
We transfer to other place and I'm 7 years old that time
Until then we live a quite life the neighborhood is always quite you will always feel the peace you want
And the place where we came from where almost of my childhood is there I can't say it's a quite place but it's always fun in there
Sometimes some people came to visit to our present place
I really strange to them and I just ask my parents who she is?
Who is he?
Who are they?
Is it ridiculous but it's normal to me
Im just laughing at myself that even people came visit us is our relatives
Funny right how could I forgot their names
I even make a nickname for them if I don't know them but ofcourse it's just in my mind really
I'm really sucks at giving nicknames
It will always be bad
The thing keeps me bothered is that to all of that why the people's name I've forgotten
Why that day I remember it clearly all of those touch
That voice why!? I can't forgot that
Every night that memory of mine keep hunting me and sometimes I fell asleep because of crying too much
Who will not right after you experience attempted rape you can laught at me dahil hindi naman natuloy
But you always feel the touch
And right now the quite neighborhood where I say you can feel the peace is not
Cause the man that beside me is keeps touching my private parts
I want to cry
I want to shout
Gusto ko pumiglas but here I am being froze I can't move
Hindi ko alam yung gagawin ko
And my tears started to flow how i hate this feeling
How I wanted to slap this man beside me how I hate him
This is not the first time he do that to me but I'm always end up being froze for a whole time
I really mad at myself cause I can't protect myself I just can't.
