Avalanche

Chapter 15;

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Skies grow darker, currents switch you out again
and you are just gone and gone, gone and gone

In silent screams and wildest dreams
I never dreamed of this

This love is good, this love is bad
This love is alive back from the dead
These hands had to let it go free
And this love came back to me

Taylor Swift- This Love

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Why does love have to cause so much pain? At the same time, it also brings so much confusion and honestly its feels like youre falling apart. I have no idea what direction to take, with this broken heart of mines. I been trying to keep myself busy with things i do, over the past few days but everytime i've pause i always end up thinking about him, thinking about Theo. I find myself going back to the old memories we both shared. To the pain he brought me and to the wonderful feelings he have made me feel. It feels like im going right back to where it all started, right back to him, but this time uninvited. -Destiny

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Sitting with Darius here in 5th period Math class, has gotten easier as the days had gone by. Im actually quite comfortable being around him now than i was before, with the whole drama with Theo and everything. Even thought i had previously sat along with Derius and of course with Theo always joining us in our little group project. It always felt like, the atmosphere was different and somehow i could never get the feeling off of me that Darius hated the attention ive given to Theo and not him.

Recently i just found out Darius is still friends with Theo, he actually never stop. Ive seen them all the time together with their crew but somehow after Theo walked me to the buses area that one day, Darius had walked away acting strange and that bothered me. Darius made me think, things between them werent so great. But all that change after Joselyn came along and became Theo's girlfriend. Things go back to right where they belong in the first place between them and now everyone was happy again, except me this time.

Darius ever since without Theo in the picture has taken in approached at me, since its been just the two of us in our group. I guess he loved that ive had given my full attention to him now, because he loves to make me laughed and smiled all the time at him, and i always loved that he is always caring towards me. But dont get me worry, love is different than being in love. With Darius i feel compassion and a nice friendship, but with Theo, is all different. I am in love with him and honestly i feel like a fish being hooked to a fishing net and that he has taken me along with his boat ride, since i was caught in his game.

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Today was not any different than any other day, at least that what ive thought. I had come into class earlier hoping, to at least finish this project we were all doing on math formulas, where at the end we have to present, to the class. Darius and i have made our project on some easy way to understand a few algebra formulas, that seem difficult and we were on the verge on almost finishing it.

I just sat there on my seat with the Math formulas project on my desk, coloring and decorating it with green markers. Since green is my favorite color. I was humming along to a few of shaggy songs, that had constantly been on my mind ever since Maddie introduced me to them. Even thought it brought long, lost memores of Theo, this music was my only salvation and the only piece of him, i had left.

I took me a while to noticed that someone had sat right next to me, as i kept humming and continued with my piece of artwork. I didnt feel the presence next to me, but actually when i felt like someone was staring at me right at me, thats when i turned around to face whoever decided to sit next to me.