I lie about the smallest things. Just to get people to leave me alone. Just so that i can isolate myself. If I am left alone, i get really bad anxiety .. my mind likes to play tricks on me.
I lied about cutting and having an eating disorder. I just wanted an excuse to feel the way that i feel. Because if i have an excuse, i won't look like some insane freak. Maybe i'll actually have a reason to feel this way.
I want help but I'm scared to get it so now i don't speak of what's wrong with me because if i do then i will have to focus on my problems. And trust me, that never gets me anywhere. Only to the depths of the darkest parts of my mind.
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The Truth
PuisiThis is the truth. Sorry, I never told you before. I know I lied, i know my story will change. yes i know. i'm horrible. but at least now you know.
